Fight Club
Had a giganto fight with Nathan at 3AM this morning. I woke up and went out into the kitchen to get some water, and I saw all the dirty dishes, and I got freaked out. I woke him up and said that I was tired of living in filth and was upset that he didn't help me out more. He got all pissy and said he didn't have time to clean tomorrow because of school. I then got in bed, and I said I didn't like him, and I didn't want him touching me (leg or arm or something). Then he stormed out of the bedroom and slept on the couch.
I woke up this morning to him crying, and the dishes were all done. I started crying, and saying I was sorry over and over and what could I do to make him feel better? I'm such a bitch sometimes. I was totally out of line, but I just freaked when I saw the dishes. I think I'm a major bitch.
To make it up to him, I wrote him a letter saying how sorry I was and how much I loved him, and I'm going to clean the rest of the apartment, and go out and buy a fishtank filter that he has been wanting but didn't have the money to get. I got an unexpected windfall today.
I don't know why I say such hurtful things. I think it is because I am really hurting inside, and he shrugs off responsibility and says he's going to do it later (which he never does). I want him to hurt as much as I hurt. That is so twisted. I need major therapy.
I really hurt him badly, and even though he kissed my forehead this morning before he left, he was still crying a little bit.
I am a major bitch bitch bitch.
I woke up this morning to him crying, and the dishes were all done. I started crying, and saying I was sorry over and over and what could I do to make him feel better? I'm such a bitch sometimes. I was totally out of line, but I just freaked when I saw the dishes. I think I'm a major bitch.
To make it up to him, I wrote him a letter saying how sorry I was and how much I loved him, and I'm going to clean the rest of the apartment, and go out and buy a fishtank filter that he has been wanting but didn't have the money to get. I got an unexpected windfall today.
I don't know why I say such hurtful things. I think it is because I am really hurting inside, and he shrugs off responsibility and says he's going to do it later (which he never does). I want him to hurt as much as I hurt. That is so twisted. I need major therapy.
I really hurt him badly, and even though he kissed my forehead this morning before he left, he was still crying a little bit.
I am a major bitch bitch bitch.