more therapy....

[syraphym]

i went for another visit today. i look forward to the visits simply because Dr. Waters will identify and listen to me not contradict me. EVERYONE contradicts me...my mother sisters him his family well....almost everyone my friends agree with me. unfortunatly i dont see them on a daily basis and get the reassurance i used to...which coincidently

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[ldychantrea]

It's funny how your mom and mine both think that the responsibilities they put on us were "routine chores." And yet I gaurantee you a lot of our peers didn't have to do those things. And yet still my mother sees my life in this family as one of contribution to the well-being of the family unit. And your mom was the same way. Yeah, you do what you have to do to keep things as stable as possible. You make sacrifices, even as a child, for the good of everyone. But you should be recognized for those things. Our mothers should see and realize that we did not have normal childhoods or even adolesences. Even now, we are dealing with things we should not be. And it's not fair and we don't have the people who should love us the most telling us that we've taken on too much and we've sacrificed so much.

My mother doesn't want to hear what the therapists say either, unless it's to say she's right. No one likes to hear when they're wrong. Especially a mother. You have a dream your whole life of being a good mom. Especially if you have grown up in an environment you don't think your kids deserve. So to hear from someone that you yourself are providing an unhealthy environment for your children, someone is basically telling you that you failed. At least that's what you hear. You don't hear it as "You are a good person. You love your kids. Here's how we can help." It goes so much deeper too. Anyway... I know you don't mean to offend me. None's taken. If I lived with your mom, I'm sure she'd find plenty of things I was doing wrong. It's easy to look at someone from afar and think how perfect that person may be. Anyway, I'm falling asleep. I love you Keekers.