welcome to hell
I’ve been in a trance for too long, now I open my eyes to shocking imagery. I guess I’ve been hiding in false realities so long I lost sight of everything real. Now I have a checklist of problems.
The top of this list is a heart that is plagued by confusion. I’m not happy the ways things are today and afraid of what I may have to do to find my tranquility. The choices I make now could change everything dramatically for better or worse! Wish I had someone to fully disclose my thoughts on this issue but I don’t really know anyone I trust enough.
Another big problem in my life is the state of debt I’m in! I’m in soo much money problems and every time I look it gets worse. I’m tire of living this way! I want out of this hole and have a little something as well. I need to find another job! I’ve tried to apply to a couple places over the past couple weeks but no luck yet. With that It makes my morale go down and question is it even possible to make things better if I try. So fucking depressing!
The fakeness of friendship in life seems overwhelming. People pretend to care! they use you and abuse you, always going away in the end. I’m sickened by this trend in my life. I would sacrifice everything for a friend, however it seems the rest of the world doesn’t feel this way. I need to cleanse all these vampires out of my life and find people to form real bonds.
Other than that, my emotions are waking from a long slumber and lack of control is ripping me apart. For so long I’ve tried to be this machine that feels no hurt but now everything hits me in abundances. With all my internal wiring corrupted everything spills out in moments of rage. Lack of sleep is another consequence of all this. Tears have become permanent!
I need a fairey Tale to make everything better!
The top of this list is a heart that is plagued by confusion. I’m not happy the ways things are today and afraid of what I may have to do to find my tranquility. The choices I make now could change everything dramatically for better or worse! Wish I had someone to fully disclose my thoughts on this issue but I don’t really know anyone I trust enough.
Another big problem in my life is the state of debt I’m in! I’m in soo much money problems and every time I look it gets worse. I’m tire of living this way! I want out of this hole and have a little something as well. I need to find another job! I’ve tried to apply to a couple places over the past couple weeks but no luck yet. With that It makes my morale go down and question is it even possible to make things better if I try. So fucking depressing!
The fakeness of friendship in life seems overwhelming. People pretend to care! they use you and abuse you, always going away in the end. I’m sickened by this trend in my life. I would sacrifice everything for a friend, however it seems the rest of the world doesn’t feel this way. I need to cleanse all these vampires out of my life and find people to form real bonds.
Other than that, my emotions are waking from a long slumber and lack of control is ripping me apart. For so long I’ve tried to be this machine that feels no hurt but now everything hits me in abundances. With all my internal wiring corrupted everything spills out in moments of rage. Lack of sleep is another consequence of all this. Tears have become permanent!
I need a fairey Tale to make everything better!