Activity!
I had a really enjoyable few days last week, where I got to see a lot of people and get out of the house. I went out for steak dinner on Friday with a friend, saw 
pplfichi on Saturday, where they showed me lots of Aikido stuff and we nattered on about various things, plus I also went and got tied on Sunday. Seeing people felt so good.
On Monday I went to the usual board gaming meetup I go to, but I really should have stayed at home because I was exhausted. However, I'd promised, it wasn't far, so I went anyway, and taught people to play Forbidden Desert, which we lost near the end in a very rapid and sudden way. I went home early though.
I also saw my ex-boyfriend for the first time since we split up. That's something I'm... not sure how I feel about yet. There's a lot there and I still haven't quite processed it.
When I got back, I noticed that I was bleeding and that was not good. I've been in pain since then and my body feels a lot like it did with the collapsed urethra. I'm pretty worried I might have done it to myself again. It hurts and I'm having some trouble going to the toilet again. If so, I might have to go back into hospital again and that scares me. But, so far, I haven't had another infection, which is a good sign.
Since then I've been resting a lot. My sleeping pattern's gone to hell a bit, so I'm up during the night and I've been sleeping a lot and not doing much. My body really seems to have needed the rest after that effort.
I can remember, when I first came here after Birmingham, that I found it really hard to do exercise. My circulation was very poor and I had difficulty sleeping. I felt that exercise, even the simple stuff that other people did for granted, was too hard. I can remember doing anything hurt. Well, I seem to be in that same space and I have a little theory that, if you're not very active, stuff builds up inside of you and exercising, even a little, can suddenly cause your circulation to reach critical mass and flush it all out, leading ironically to a crash rather than betterment.
Anyway, that's what I feel like at the moment. My circulation finally feels like it got kicked into the appropriate place and suddenly I just feel a lot better, although I feel awful. My skin is looking the best it's done in days and my extremities aren't freezing cold all the time. Plus there's this bruise I gave myself that is actually fading quicker now. With the rest, if my urethra is all right, I can get back on with gaining stamina and strength. But it's been all I can do to sit and play the computer and do nothing much.
pplfichi on Saturday, where they showed me lots of Aikido stuff and we nattered on about various things, plus I also went and got tied on Sunday. Seeing people felt so good.
On Monday I went to the usual board gaming meetup I go to, but I really should have stayed at home because I was exhausted. However, I'd promised, it wasn't far, so I went anyway, and taught people to play Forbidden Desert, which we lost near the end in a very rapid and sudden way. I went home early though.
I also saw my ex-boyfriend for the first time since we split up. That's something I'm... not sure how I feel about yet. There's a lot there and I still haven't quite processed it.
When I got back, I noticed that I was bleeding and that was not good. I've been in pain since then and my body feels a lot like it did with the collapsed urethra. I'm pretty worried I might have done it to myself again. It hurts and I'm having some trouble going to the toilet again. If so, I might have to go back into hospital again and that scares me. But, so far, I haven't had another infection, which is a good sign.
Since then I've been resting a lot. My sleeping pattern's gone to hell a bit, so I'm up during the night and I've been sleeping a lot and not doing much. My body really seems to have needed the rest after that effort.
I can remember, when I first came here after Birmingham, that I found it really hard to do exercise. My circulation was very poor and I had difficulty sleeping. I felt that exercise, even the simple stuff that other people did for granted, was too hard. I can remember doing anything hurt. Well, I seem to be in that same space and I have a little theory that, if you're not very active, stuff builds up inside of you and exercising, even a little, can suddenly cause your circulation to reach critical mass and flush it all out, leading ironically to a crash rather than betterment.
Anyway, that's what I feel like at the moment. My circulation finally feels like it got kicked into the appropriate place and suddenly I just feel a lot better, although I feel awful. My skin is looking the best it's done in days and my extremities aren't freezing cold all the time. Plus there's this bruise I gave myself that is actually fading quicker now. With the rest, if my urethra is all right, I can get back on with gaining stamina and strength. But it's been all I can do to sit and play the computer and do nothing much.