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So, in an effort to reconnect with people I am trying to post a bit more.
There's something different in my head lately, I can't explain if it's the summer or whatever, but I don't feel that big pressure that's stoping me from doing anything. It's still hard to get myself going sometimes, but I've been writing more, I've been motivated to do a lot of things that used to make it difficult to get through the day. I'm waiting for August for my doctor to come from vacation and then I'm planning on having a long conversation with her about the state of my body, which is better than it was but not good enough and the state of my mind, which is more important.
I don't feel as lost and disconnected as I did only a couple months earlier, like everything was numb and...not pointless but not worth getting excited about. Since then I've found a new joy in the smallest of things, my cats (and all the cats that I run into when I'm walking outside), a good book (though rarely a novel because fanfictiion ruined me for everything else), cooking, writing.
This weekend I went for a first swim of the summer, though defintely not the last because there's a new African heat wave coming starting tomorrow and it's gonna hit us in the south first. I cooked pasta with cheese entirely from leftovers and I was really pleased with how it turned out when it took me only 5 minutes to get it done. I made some pancakes.
I wrote about 2500 words over the weekend, though not all of them for the story that I should be writing the most, which is my marvel_bang story, but any writing is good. I did get stuck on the marvel story, something completely insignificant that made me doubt everything about it, the plot, the writing, if I'll actually be able to finish it in time. I even thought about abandoning it and starting up something new and simpler, but I want to do this, want to write something long and complicated that will make me feel like I accomplished something even if no one will read it because I love the story I came up with. I don't want to abandon it and feel like a faliure. Again. When I came to that conclusion I actually figured out how to get past the snag I hit and now I'm writing it again.
Also, I am staying clear of tumblr lately, because communication there is difficult and extremely annoying. So I just go and reblog and watch the pretty. ^_^
The new additions to the family are a freaking joy. I have a boy and a girl, and he (the grey one on the pics) appears to be a longhair and they are a delight. She's gonna be trouble because at two weeks old she's already running around and wreaking havoc.
There's something different in my head lately, I can't explain if it's the summer or whatever, but I don't feel that big pressure that's stoping me from doing anything. It's still hard to get myself going sometimes, but I've been writing more, I've been motivated to do a lot of things that used to make it difficult to get through the day. I'm waiting for August for my doctor to come from vacation and then I'm planning on having a long conversation with her about the state of my body, which is better than it was but not good enough and the state of my mind, which is more important.
I don't feel as lost and disconnected as I did only a couple months earlier, like everything was numb and...not pointless but not worth getting excited about. Since then I've found a new joy in the smallest of things, my cats (and all the cats that I run into when I'm walking outside), a good book (though rarely a novel because fanfictiion ruined me for everything else), cooking, writing.
This weekend I went for a first swim of the summer, though defintely not the last because there's a new African heat wave coming starting tomorrow and it's gonna hit us in the south first. I cooked pasta with cheese entirely from leftovers and I was really pleased with how it turned out when it took me only 5 minutes to get it done. I made some pancakes.
I wrote about 2500 words over the weekend, though not all of them for the story that I should be writing the most, which is my marvel_bang story, but any writing is good. I did get stuck on the marvel story, something completely insignificant that made me doubt everything about it, the plot, the writing, if I'll actually be able to finish it in time. I even thought about abandoning it and starting up something new and simpler, but I want to do this, want to write something long and complicated that will make me feel like I accomplished something even if no one will read it because I love the story I came up with. I don't want to abandon it and feel like a faliure. Again. When I came to that conclusion I actually figured out how to get past the snag I hit and now I'm writing it again.
Also, I am staying clear of tumblr lately, because communication there is difficult and extremely annoying. So I just go and reblog and watch the pretty. ^_^
The new additions to the family are a freaking joy. I have a boy and a girl, and he (the grey one on the pics) appears to be a longhair and they are a delight. She's gonna be trouble because at two weeks old she's already running around and wreaking havoc.