Intimacy V Isolation
Hm. I had soooooo much to write about recently, and I keeeeeep meaning to do it, but instead I choose to like.. sit around and say "gee, why isn't anything getting done?!" hahaha!!
So, intimacy V isolation, and I choose isolation.
But I miss this girl. Ugh, I always do you know? And I have this awful memory, those of you who know me on a daily basis really know this but others do not.... well I don't remember why her and I stopped talking. I just remember her hating me, and being really immature about it hahaha and then seeing her not too long ago, and sitting very, very near to her and neither of us having a problem. But not acknowledging each other. I wrote her a letter once and asked why we weren't friends anymore, because I am sure it was something that I did -- or that she thought I did. Well my life is all the same without her, but really... we were SO close. Such good friends, what happened? I don't know. So even more recently I saw someone close to her and she also pretended that I was either not there or neutral. I am glad that all this maturity could be there, really, but I just wish I knew what went on with me.
Between my horrible, awful, completely unreliable memory... and my moodswings, and interferring personalities [oh, what a multitud, as my friends/enemies can tell you] well, I just this it's horrible for me. One day I do one this to destroy all I have, and the next I don't even know it's happened! WEEP!
Needless to say, I still don't remember all the things I had to say in this entry. But I did visit FSU for a week, and because I never remember why I hate Dan HAHAHAHHAHAHA I wiiiiiill.. be transferring in the fall =] I will be in a nifty townhouse with my friends... More on this later, as I slowly finalize and accept this ^-^
-Sammeh
So, intimacy V isolation, and I choose isolation.
But I miss this girl. Ugh, I always do you know? And I have this awful memory, those of you who know me on a daily basis really know this but others do not.... well I don't remember why her and I stopped talking. I just remember her hating me, and being really immature about it hahaha and then seeing her not too long ago, and sitting very, very near to her and neither of us having a problem. But not acknowledging each other. I wrote her a letter once and asked why we weren't friends anymore, because I am sure it was something that I did -- or that she thought I did. Well my life is all the same without her, but really... we were SO close. Such good friends, what happened? I don't know. So even more recently I saw someone close to her and she also pretended that I was either not there or neutral. I am glad that all this maturity could be there, really, but I just wish I knew what went on with me.
Between my horrible, awful, completely unreliable memory... and my moodswings, and interferring personalities [oh, what a multitud, as my friends/enemies can tell you] well, I just this it's horrible for me. One day I do one this to destroy all I have, and the next I don't even know it's happened! WEEP!
Needless to say, I still don't remember all the things I had to say in this entry. But I did visit FSU for a week, and because I never remember why I hate Dan HAHAHAHHAHAHA I wiiiiiill.. be transferring in the fall =] I will be in a nifty townhouse with my friends... More on this later, as I slowly finalize and accept this ^-^
-Sammeh