If We Ever Meet Again
Title: If We Ever Meet Again
Rating: PG-13
Fandom: Code Geass, Supernatural
Character(s): Kozuki Kallen, Gabriel
Pairing(s): Gabriel/Kallen
Word Count: 1,921
Summary: Kallen made the biggest mistake of her life by telling Gabriel she never wanted to see him again. Thirteen years of regrets passed and everything she wanted to say to him stayed inside.
Author's Note: Pairing based off threads from sortinghat_rp roleplay. Written for technicallysane who is obviously the Gabriel to my Kallen. The fic is based off Timberland featuring Katy Perry's If We Ever Meet Again.
Kallen really wanted to get to the bottom of it all. Why did Gabriel refuse to tell her what was going on? They had a past together. Everyone but Kallen knew; Thobari and Castiel knew more than she did. The TA didn't like being kept in the dark but Gabriel preferred it that way.
She was at her wit’s end. She wanted to ignore the fact that they had a past together she knew nothing of. But since it involved her, it only made sense for her curiosity.
"Gabriel?"
"What?"
"I will ask you for the last time. There is something in my past that you are not telling me. Why aren't you sharing that information with me?"
"It's on a need to know basis and welp, you don't need to know."
Kallen ran a hand through her auburn hair as she sighed. The release of her breath carried anger and perhaps hatred and malice. Castiel and Thobari were in ‘the know’ and she wasn’t. Couldn’t he see how frustrating that was?
"Since I do not need to know, I suppose there's no use in 'knowing' you."
Gabriel, in all of the fourteen year he knew her, had never heard Kallen speak to anyone that way. He was a bit shocked but didn't display it at all. In fact, the look on his face turned stern and cold.
"Watch what you're saying. Any more and you'll regret your words, kiddo."
The rage pumping through her veins caused her to dismiss Gabriel’s nickname comment. It was something she had always corrected him on, but not this time.
"What's there to regret? There is nothing between us. So leave. I don't want to see you ever again."
Gabriel knew that the twenty two year old was angry and was spewing nonsense. He knew better than anyone else that she really didn't mean what she said. But when the silence filled the air, he realized that she had shocked him once... and did so again.
"What? So that's it? I don't spill one secret and you're kicking me out of your life?"
Kallen's eyes stared into Gabriel's golden ones.
"Fine. Have it your way. Don't regret this, Kallen. Later kid."
And with a snap of his fingers, Gabriel's presence was gone. Kallen turned her back and started to walk away. With every step she felt her anger slip from her. With every step she realized she was alone in her office. She stopped and turned to face where Gabriel was standing.
She drew in a breath and shakily said the male's name. No answer. Footsteps led her back to the position she was standing in earlier. Maybe if she called him again from her previous spot, he'd come back.
"Gabriel?"
Silence.
The seconds turned into minutes and the minutes into hours. Soon, they turned into days, weeks, and months. Somewhere in between, Thobari had betrayed Kallen’s trust once more. She had told him the previous time that if he were to hurt her again, unintentional or not, she’d leave and never come back.
Her resignation letter came soon after.
The months gathered together turned into a half of a year when Kallen lost her mother. The damage of the drugs was done and there was no saving her. With her mother’s passing, she had no one. She couldn’t stay in a place with memories of her home and her workplace, so she left to America.
From there, a full year passed. Years turned into a decade and Kallen had moved on. Somewhere along the way, old high school acquaintances reached out to her, wanting to reconnect. Sure, why not? She had no one else. Kallen lost herself along the way, actually agreeing to go to a club. This was so not her.
One time turned into two which slowly became a constant weekend outing. The club definitely wasn’t her scene, but it was something to do. It beat sitting in her house when there was nothing to do except think back on her life and the choices she made. And it served as a good stress reliever from her job (because, seriously? Could people be that stupid?).
Kallen took one last sip of her drink before calling it quits. She didn’t want to ruin everyone’s fun by not being heavily involved. Sometimes it was a little difficult considering she had no connection with these people besides the fact they all attended high school together.
Stepping down from the bar chair, Kallen placed her hand on the side of her face as her eyes scanned the crowd of people. As she turned to place her money on the table to pay for the drinks she had, she caught a glimpse of something. Instinct (and the alcohol) was telling her to follow, seek it out. Pushing through the crowds of people, the woman searched. He had almost wished she hadn’t had consumed any drinks because she knew she could run faster, she just couldn’t at the moment. She would stop, turn her head left and then right, before following the shadow again. Something seemed familiar about it and she needed to reach out to it somehow.
After ten minutes of the wild goose chase, Kallen gave up. It was unlike her nature, but she wasn’t feeling like herself. Just moving out for that long made her overly tired and she just wanted to sit. She made her way to the back of the club into one of the rooms. Going in and closing the door behind her, she slumped against the back of the wall and slid down to rest there. Knees drawn up and arms wrapped around them; a thought set in: she was alone.
Her father was as good as dead to her while her mother found a better place. She left behind her job, her love, and her happiness in order to start over in a place where no one knew her. Even with her high school ‘friends’, not many people knew outside of the outstanding work she did within her job’s field.
The thought hit harder than it should have (thank you intoxication), and in the first time since her mother’s death, she cried. It was soundless and only tears fell from her eyes. Kallen rested her forehead against her arms.
Time passed on and she didn’t keep track of it. Something warm placed itself on her head. The process was slow, but she lifted her head to see what had touched her.
A hand in comfort.
She followed it back to its owner and there was the familiar shadow.
Gabriel.
Kallen’s heart stopped along with her mind and thought process. They hadn’t seen each over in thirteen years. And if her memory served her right, she told Gabriel she never wanted to see him again.
“Hey there kiddo. I leave ya for a bit and this is the state I see you in? Tsk tsk Kallen. You’re better than this.”
The ability to speak hadn’t been given back to her. All she could do was stare at him. Gabriel was right in front of her, knee bent, and a hand upon her head.
“If I hadn’t known any better, I woulda guess you were stalking me. Saw a ghost or something?” How ironic for him to say so.
“G-Gabriel…?”
Real? This has to be real right? She wasn’t imaging things? He was right in front of her. But no, this couldn’t be real. Kallen couldn’t see through him like before and his hand was resting on top of her head, warm, and not floating in space.
“Now answer me this. What’s somebody like you doing in a place like this? Lost your way or something? Last I remember Kallen Statdfeld wasn’t the club scene type of girl.”
“I- ”
“Lemme guess: things got too hard for you so you left on a journey to find a different lifestyle. I understand.”
“What are you doing here?”
The first coherent and non-stuttering line out her mouth and it was a question. Gabriel smiled and moved his hand from the top of her auburn hair to under her jaw, tilting Kallen’s head up slightly.
“To see you, silly.”
“But I said-”
“That you didn’t want to see me again right. Yeah, I know. But that wasn’t really what you wanted.”
“Then why didn’t you come back when I called you? I called out your name for months after that.”
“Figured I’d give you what you said you wanted. And besides, after a while, I couldn’t hear your voice.”
“Couldn’t hear-”
“Decide I wouldn’t be the same if I saw you again. Been working on that for some time now.”
“What do you mean?”
“Doesn’t something seem, hm I don’t know, different to you?”
Gabriel ran the fingertips of his hand down the side of neck. The movement was slow, light and his touch, warm. They danced along her collarbone until they traced the back of her neck and threaded into her hair. Kallen on the other hand, cerulean eyes never left Gabriel’s face.
“You’re-”
“Yep, that’s right.”
“Human.”
The word fell from her lips almost unnaturally. Gabriel who was once a ghost, now turned human. and honestly, it was something he always wanted to do. To touch, feel her. He had been robbed of doing that since he first met her. He found a way to revert back to his human state and worked long and hard for his form to return. His reward? Kallen of course.
“Gabriel…”
She brought her hands up to cup his face. He was warm… so warm.
“Hm?”
“I want to leave here with you.”
“Run me by me again. Sure that’s not the alcohol talking?”
“No, I’m serious. I don’t care if this is some crazy dream plaguing my mind because of karma. I let you go once. I swore to myself that if we ever met again, I’d never let you get away from me. Thirteen years I’ve had so much to say to you but never could. ”
He gave off a smirk, a dangerous one. He leaned forward and kissed her forehead before moving down to her lips. Kallen didn’t smell strong of alcohol but he could taste the remnants of it on her lips; orange juice with a hint of vodka. Gabriel had thought about it before. ‘What type of drink would Kallen order?’ Fruity drinks didn’t suit her; she’d be able to taste the alcohol in that. In a Screwdriver, she wouldn’t be able to. She hadn’t reached her limit and actually, she was no where near it. Kallen was definitely coherent and aware of her choices.
When he pulled away, Kallen only moved forward so he couldn’t break the kiss. The move was interesting enough and he didn’t expect that at all. After the shocked passed, Gabriel placed his hands on her shoulder and pushed her back.
“You’re serious about this? This ‘not letting me go’ thing.”
“…” Her silence was a good enough answer.
“Come on then before you lose your feisty edge,” Gabriel stood up and offered a hand to Kallen, “We’ll go somewhere nice.”
The woman took his hand and pulled herself up from the floor. As they walked out the club, and thankfully unnoticed by Kallen’s classmates, her blue eyes never left the man in front of her.
“Gabriel. I-”
“Save the sap for later. I already know what you’re going to say.”
Walking down the street, Gabriel silently whispered, “Yeah, me too.”
Rating: PG-13
Fandom: Code Geass, Supernatural
Character(s): Kozuki Kallen, Gabriel
Pairing(s): Gabriel/Kallen
Word Count: 1,921
Summary: Kallen made the biggest mistake of her life by telling Gabriel she never wanted to see him again. Thirteen years of regrets passed and everything she wanted to say to him stayed inside.
Author's Note: Pairing based off threads from sortinghat_rp roleplay. Written for technicallysane who is obviously the Gabriel to my Kallen. The fic is based off Timberland featuring Katy Perry's If We Ever Meet Again.
Kallen really wanted to get to the bottom of it all. Why did Gabriel refuse to tell her what was going on? They had a past together. Everyone but Kallen knew; Thobari and Castiel knew more than she did. The TA didn't like being kept in the dark but Gabriel preferred it that way.
She was at her wit’s end. She wanted to ignore the fact that they had a past together she knew nothing of. But since it involved her, it only made sense for her curiosity.
"Gabriel?"
"What?"
"I will ask you for the last time. There is something in my past that you are not telling me. Why aren't you sharing that information with me?"
"It's on a need to know basis and welp, you don't need to know."
Kallen ran a hand through her auburn hair as she sighed. The release of her breath carried anger and perhaps hatred and malice. Castiel and Thobari were in ‘the know’ and she wasn’t. Couldn’t he see how frustrating that was?
"Since I do not need to know, I suppose there's no use in 'knowing' you."
Gabriel, in all of the fourteen year he knew her, had never heard Kallen speak to anyone that way. He was a bit shocked but didn't display it at all. In fact, the look on his face turned stern and cold.
"Watch what you're saying. Any more and you'll regret your words, kiddo."
The rage pumping through her veins caused her to dismiss Gabriel’s nickname comment. It was something she had always corrected him on, but not this time.
"What's there to regret? There is nothing between us. So leave. I don't want to see you ever again."
Gabriel knew that the twenty two year old was angry and was spewing nonsense. He knew better than anyone else that she really didn't mean what she said. But when the silence filled the air, he realized that she had shocked him once... and did so again.
"What? So that's it? I don't spill one secret and you're kicking me out of your life?"
Kallen's eyes stared into Gabriel's golden ones.
"Fine. Have it your way. Don't regret this, Kallen. Later kid."
And with a snap of his fingers, Gabriel's presence was gone. Kallen turned her back and started to walk away. With every step she felt her anger slip from her. With every step she realized she was alone in her office. She stopped and turned to face where Gabriel was standing.
She drew in a breath and shakily said the male's name. No answer. Footsteps led her back to the position she was standing in earlier. Maybe if she called him again from her previous spot, he'd come back.
"Gabriel?"
Silence.
The seconds turned into minutes and the minutes into hours. Soon, they turned into days, weeks, and months. Somewhere in between, Thobari had betrayed Kallen’s trust once more. She had told him the previous time that if he were to hurt her again, unintentional or not, she’d leave and never come back.
Her resignation letter came soon after.
The months gathered together turned into a half of a year when Kallen lost her mother. The damage of the drugs was done and there was no saving her. With her mother’s passing, she had no one. She couldn’t stay in a place with memories of her home and her workplace, so she left to America.
From there, a full year passed. Years turned into a decade and Kallen had moved on. Somewhere along the way, old high school acquaintances reached out to her, wanting to reconnect. Sure, why not? She had no one else. Kallen lost herself along the way, actually agreeing to go to a club. This was so not her.
One time turned into two which slowly became a constant weekend outing. The club definitely wasn’t her scene, but it was something to do. It beat sitting in her house when there was nothing to do except think back on her life and the choices she made. And it served as a good stress reliever from her job (because, seriously? Could people be that stupid?).
Kallen took one last sip of her drink before calling it quits. She didn’t want to ruin everyone’s fun by not being heavily involved. Sometimes it was a little difficult considering she had no connection with these people besides the fact they all attended high school together.
Stepping down from the bar chair, Kallen placed her hand on the side of her face as her eyes scanned the crowd of people. As she turned to place her money on the table to pay for the drinks she had, she caught a glimpse of something. Instinct (and the alcohol) was telling her to follow, seek it out. Pushing through the crowds of people, the woman searched. He had almost wished she hadn’t had consumed any drinks because she knew she could run faster, she just couldn’t at the moment. She would stop, turn her head left and then right, before following the shadow again. Something seemed familiar about it and she needed to reach out to it somehow.
After ten minutes of the wild goose chase, Kallen gave up. It was unlike her nature, but she wasn’t feeling like herself. Just moving out for that long made her overly tired and she just wanted to sit. She made her way to the back of the club into one of the rooms. Going in and closing the door behind her, she slumped against the back of the wall and slid down to rest there. Knees drawn up and arms wrapped around them; a thought set in: she was alone.
Her father was as good as dead to her while her mother found a better place. She left behind her job, her love, and her happiness in order to start over in a place where no one knew her. Even with her high school ‘friends’, not many people knew outside of the outstanding work she did within her job’s field.
The thought hit harder than it should have (thank you intoxication), and in the first time since her mother’s death, she cried. It was soundless and only tears fell from her eyes. Kallen rested her forehead against her arms.
Time passed on and she didn’t keep track of it. Something warm placed itself on her head. The process was slow, but she lifted her head to see what had touched her.
A hand in comfort.
She followed it back to its owner and there was the familiar shadow.
Gabriel.
Kallen’s heart stopped along with her mind and thought process. They hadn’t seen each over in thirteen years. And if her memory served her right, she told Gabriel she never wanted to see him again.
“Hey there kiddo. I leave ya for a bit and this is the state I see you in? Tsk tsk Kallen. You’re better than this.”
The ability to speak hadn’t been given back to her. All she could do was stare at him. Gabriel was right in front of her, knee bent, and a hand upon her head.
“If I hadn’t known any better, I woulda guess you were stalking me. Saw a ghost or something?” How ironic for him to say so.
“G-Gabriel…?”
Real? This has to be real right? She wasn’t imaging things? He was right in front of her. But no, this couldn’t be real. Kallen couldn’t see through him like before and his hand was resting on top of her head, warm, and not floating in space.
“Now answer me this. What’s somebody like you doing in a place like this? Lost your way or something? Last I remember Kallen Statdfeld wasn’t the club scene type of girl.”
“I- ”
“Lemme guess: things got too hard for you so you left on a journey to find a different lifestyle. I understand.”
“What are you doing here?”
The first coherent and non-stuttering line out her mouth and it was a question. Gabriel smiled and moved his hand from the top of her auburn hair to under her jaw, tilting Kallen’s head up slightly.
“To see you, silly.”
“But I said-”
“That you didn’t want to see me again right. Yeah, I know. But that wasn’t really what you wanted.”
“Then why didn’t you come back when I called you? I called out your name for months after that.”
“Figured I’d give you what you said you wanted. And besides, after a while, I couldn’t hear your voice.”
“Couldn’t hear-”
“Decide I wouldn’t be the same if I saw you again. Been working on that for some time now.”
“What do you mean?”
“Doesn’t something seem, hm I don’t know, different to you?”
Gabriel ran the fingertips of his hand down the side of neck. The movement was slow, light and his touch, warm. They danced along her collarbone until they traced the back of her neck and threaded into her hair. Kallen on the other hand, cerulean eyes never left Gabriel’s face.
“You’re-”
“Yep, that’s right.”
“Human.”
The word fell from her lips almost unnaturally. Gabriel who was once a ghost, now turned human. and honestly, it was something he always wanted to do. To touch, feel her. He had been robbed of doing that since he first met her. He found a way to revert back to his human state and worked long and hard for his form to return. His reward? Kallen of course.
“Gabriel…”
She brought her hands up to cup his face. He was warm… so warm.
“Hm?”
“I want to leave here with you.”
“Run me by me again. Sure that’s not the alcohol talking?”
“No, I’m serious. I don’t care if this is some crazy dream plaguing my mind because of karma. I let you go once. I swore to myself that if we ever met again, I’d never let you get away from me. Thirteen years I’ve had so much to say to you but never could. ”
He gave off a smirk, a dangerous one. He leaned forward and kissed her forehead before moving down to her lips. Kallen didn’t smell strong of alcohol but he could taste the remnants of it on her lips; orange juice with a hint of vodka. Gabriel had thought about it before. ‘What type of drink would Kallen order?’ Fruity drinks didn’t suit her; she’d be able to taste the alcohol in that. In a Screwdriver, she wouldn’t be able to. She hadn’t reached her limit and actually, she was no where near it. Kallen was definitely coherent and aware of her choices.
When he pulled away, Kallen only moved forward so he couldn’t break the kiss. The move was interesting enough and he didn’t expect that at all. After the shocked passed, Gabriel placed his hands on her shoulder and pushed her back.
“You’re serious about this? This ‘not letting me go’ thing.”
“…” Her silence was a good enough answer.
“Come on then before you lose your feisty edge,” Gabriel stood up and offered a hand to Kallen, “We’ll go somewhere nice.”
The woman took his hand and pulled herself up from the floor. As they walked out the club, and thankfully unnoticed by Kallen’s classmates, her blue eyes never left the man in front of her.
“Gabriel. I-”
“Save the sap for later. I already know what you’re going to say.”
Walking down the street, Gabriel silently whispered, “Yeah, me too.”