Just like Judas' Kiss: Blacklisted!
Jeremy Dabbs, my best friend of the past two years, does not exist to me anymore!
Wayne Wedge does not exist to me anymore.
Zach Faith does not exist to me anymore.
By Faith Alone does not exist to me anymore.
They are blacklisted from my life for showing me the Judas' that they are. Yeah, tell me you love me as a brother in Christ, just so long as you either don't have to work to earn your living anymore. Or perhaps you can just pay however much you want to. Forget about our collective goal as a family! Some of us didn't give a damn about those goals of paying rent and paying bills, Zach and Wayne!! And you call yourselves hardcore?! HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! "Hardcore Disappointments" would be the better description of your behaviors as friends, roommates, AND accountable brothers in Christ! Hardcore immaturity and Hardcore irresponsibility is the only thing that they have been hardcore at at all. It's not hardcore to be lazy and refuse to work. It's not hardcore to live by the graciousness of others so you can sit on your ass all day every fucking day! It's not hardcore to pay rent and pay bills but only pay what you think is enough. In other words, paying only what is and when is convenient for you....that's not hardcore. It's not hardcore to leave someone else with over $6000 of YOUR debt to someone else just because your name isn't legally attached to a contract. It's not hardcore to kick someone out of your band and then have me do the dirty work by kicking him out of the apartment. That is cowardice, and once again, it is NOT hardcore. You guys make me sick!!! You all can forever walk the Hall Of Shame! Here's something you probably never thought about. Did you ever wonder, or did you even know that Jesus taught about and made reference to managing your money more than he taught about anything else?! Did you ever wonder? Or did you ever get to know your Saviour enough to know that little tidbit of information?! A true measure of your spiritual condition lies in how you use your money to either help others and yourself or to manipulate others to gain for only yourself!! Why is this a true measure? Because the way you use your money is also a reflection of the way you treat your faith, your God, and your spiritual walk and relationship with Christ! Hey, you can't disagree with me about this point. Your disagreement is with Christ if you so choose to say that is not an accurate measure. They're HIS words, not mine! Go ahead! Disagree! I so fucking dare you to! You guys have failed the test! Congratulations!
How does it feel to know that you have gotten out of a commitment that you all swore to keeping, only to leave me with YOUR BALANCE, YOUR DEBT and the pain that YOU have given unto me?!?!
Ruining A Friendship
"I don't want to ruin a friendship because of this, Rikki..."
Jeremy, you don't want to ruin a friendship but you did anyway. Your mental conflict is with yourself, not with me. If you didn't want to ruin a friendship, than why the bloody hell did you do it? I expected this from everyone else, but I didn't expect it from you! You were my best friend! How the FUCK could you betray me like that?!?! Just face the facts. You got scared, because you were having money problems, and you jumped ship and left me with the penalty. Thanks to you, I now owe at the very least $6195.00 to the complex. They will take me to court. They will get a judgment against me, and there's not a damn thing I can do about it, because my name was the only name on the lease. I'm already being garnished for child support. I don't need an extra $6000 dollars taken away from me, because of your childish insecurity bullshit about getting yourself in debt. Jeremy, you have no idea what "debt" is. To be thankful anyway, thanks for giving me yours! *plastic smiles*
Saying that you don't want to ruin a friendship over this but then doing it anyway, let me tell you what it is like. It is just as if you came up to me, put a gun to the back of my neck. Pull the trigger and paralyze me from the neck down. Then saying to me, "Can we still be friends?" THAT IS BULLSHIT!!!! You KNEW that everyone else would leave if you left. You told me more times than I can count that no matter what happens, you were going to stick this out with me. I believed you, and I trusted you because you have never let me down in the past. I guess I am the naive one. It's ultimately my fault for putting trust in you, but then again, don't friends take that risk? Yes they do. Problem is, you just weren't being a friend. It is as simple as that. Not only is it the debt that all of you have given to me, but it is also the fact that you have made it virtually impossible for me to get a decent place to live now for who knows how long, because you have ruined my rental history by walking out on me and letting me get evicted. Remember, it wasn't you or Zach, or Wayne, or Chris that got evicted. It was ME! You can still get a place. I can't. Merry fucking Christmas to me! Thanks for the early gift!
You asked me for a hug. It's very interesting and with stark comparisons. Judas betrayed Jesus with a kiss for pocket change. You betray me with a hug for money motivated reasons as well. Thanks for playing the Judas role. You played the part well, my friend!
Jeremy, I do love you, man. I always have and I always will. But I can't easily forget OR forgive this. So you could say that I'm not being Christ-like by refusing you of forgiveness. Well, I suppose you would be right in saying that, but at the moment, I'm not concerned with being Christ-like. Right now, I feel like ripping your fucking trachea out of your throat and eating it while I watch you bleed to death!
Hey, guess what?! Now I know how Roger Martinez felt when he was a victim of extortion. Now I know how he felt when he inherited 4 other peoples' debt! You fucking sons of bitches!!!!! FUCK YOU!!!
Wayne Wedge does not exist to me anymore.
Zach Faith does not exist to me anymore.
By Faith Alone does not exist to me anymore.
They are blacklisted from my life for showing me the Judas' that they are. Yeah, tell me you love me as a brother in Christ, just so long as you either don't have to work to earn your living anymore. Or perhaps you can just pay however much you want to. Forget about our collective goal as a family! Some of us didn't give a damn about those goals of paying rent and paying bills, Zach and Wayne!! And you call yourselves hardcore?! HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! "Hardcore Disappointments" would be the better description of your behaviors as friends, roommates, AND accountable brothers in Christ! Hardcore immaturity and Hardcore irresponsibility is the only thing that they have been hardcore at at all. It's not hardcore to be lazy and refuse to work. It's not hardcore to live by the graciousness of others so you can sit on your ass all day every fucking day! It's not hardcore to pay rent and pay bills but only pay what you think is enough. In other words, paying only what is and when is convenient for you....that's not hardcore. It's not hardcore to leave someone else with over $6000 of YOUR debt to someone else just because your name isn't legally attached to a contract. It's not hardcore to kick someone out of your band and then have me do the dirty work by kicking him out of the apartment. That is cowardice, and once again, it is NOT hardcore. You guys make me sick!!! You all can forever walk the Hall Of Shame! Here's something you probably never thought about. Did you ever wonder, or did you even know that Jesus taught about and made reference to managing your money more than he taught about anything else?! Did you ever wonder? Or did you ever get to know your Saviour enough to know that little tidbit of information?! A true measure of your spiritual condition lies in how you use your money to either help others and yourself or to manipulate others to gain for only yourself!! Why is this a true measure? Because the way you use your money is also a reflection of the way you treat your faith, your God, and your spiritual walk and relationship with Christ! Hey, you can't disagree with me about this point. Your disagreement is with Christ if you so choose to say that is not an accurate measure. They're HIS words, not mine! Go ahead! Disagree! I so fucking dare you to! You guys have failed the test! Congratulations!
How does it feel to know that you have gotten out of a commitment that you all swore to keeping, only to leave me with YOUR BALANCE, YOUR DEBT and the pain that YOU have given unto me?!?!
Ruining A Friendship
"I don't want to ruin a friendship because of this, Rikki..."
Jeremy, you don't want to ruin a friendship but you did anyway. Your mental conflict is with yourself, not with me. If you didn't want to ruin a friendship, than why the bloody hell did you do it? I expected this from everyone else, but I didn't expect it from you! You were my best friend! How the FUCK could you betray me like that?!?! Just face the facts. You got scared, because you were having money problems, and you jumped ship and left me with the penalty. Thanks to you, I now owe at the very least $6195.00 to the complex. They will take me to court. They will get a judgment against me, and there's not a damn thing I can do about it, because my name was the only name on the lease. I'm already being garnished for child support. I don't need an extra $6000 dollars taken away from me, because of your childish insecurity bullshit about getting yourself in debt. Jeremy, you have no idea what "debt" is. To be thankful anyway, thanks for giving me yours! *plastic smiles*
Saying that you don't want to ruin a friendship over this but then doing it anyway, let me tell you what it is like. It is just as if you came up to me, put a gun to the back of my neck. Pull the trigger and paralyze me from the neck down. Then saying to me, "Can we still be friends?" THAT IS BULLSHIT!!!! You KNEW that everyone else would leave if you left. You told me more times than I can count that no matter what happens, you were going to stick this out with me. I believed you, and I trusted you because you have never let me down in the past. I guess I am the naive one. It's ultimately my fault for putting trust in you, but then again, don't friends take that risk? Yes they do. Problem is, you just weren't being a friend. It is as simple as that. Not only is it the debt that all of you have given to me, but it is also the fact that you have made it virtually impossible for me to get a decent place to live now for who knows how long, because you have ruined my rental history by walking out on me and letting me get evicted. Remember, it wasn't you or Zach, or Wayne, or Chris that got evicted. It was ME! You can still get a place. I can't. Merry fucking Christmas to me! Thanks for the early gift!
You asked me for a hug. It's very interesting and with stark comparisons. Judas betrayed Jesus with a kiss for pocket change. You betray me with a hug for money motivated reasons as well. Thanks for playing the Judas role. You played the part well, my friend!
Jeremy, I do love you, man. I always have and I always will. But I can't easily forget OR forgive this. So you could say that I'm not being Christ-like by refusing you of forgiveness. Well, I suppose you would be right in saying that, but at the moment, I'm not concerned with being Christ-like. Right now, I feel like ripping your fucking trachea out of your throat and eating it while I watch you bleed to death!
Hey, guess what?! Now I know how Roger Martinez felt when he was a victim of extortion. Now I know how he felt when he inherited 4 other peoples' debt! You fucking sons of bitches!!!!! FUCK YOU!!!