hip hip hooray

[sylvie_star]

enjoying good friends and good times, and tequila and vodka and red wine ooh ooh and a beer andrew says (not that andrew!) oigh veh! if i knew how to spell it i'd spell it right. stevie andrew emilie chainsaw alyson rachel dave casey chris 'n' me! yahoo! did i mention i'd been drinking? by the way my pic is rather androgynous if you didn't notice. though i did feel rather attractive parts of tonight till i sat downstairs on my own bar and caught myself in my own reflection waaaay too many times, you ever notice how attractive you cease to feel when you can actually see yourself? seeing bits and pieces of 'crash' thank god i'm not a racist by the way i fear my society. yikes how... i don't even know how to describe. thank god for inebriation, it leaves me without words to describe the emotions i hate to even recognize. by the way for those of you who've seen it little input here we were discussing the scene where thandi newton gets molested by matt dilon, the guys say "whats a husband to do?" the girls say "if somebody was doing that to me I pray someone bigger and stronger would stand up for me." the divisions drawn by skin tones and cultures cross such lines and then intermingle, there are cultures associated with skintones and vice versa. and yet levels of melatonin and ancestral history divide people even today. i'm grateful for the household i grew up in...some people say "open minded" bullshit, just mindful, aware of the fact that people are people human being hearts souls, full of emotions, susceptable to the pain anyone else finds it necessary to inflict. hahaha mad w.a.s.p.'s in the movie, but then again don't we all have equal rights, to anger humiliation hurt, and the power to inflict it. anyway blah blah blah... i'm lucky i love people goodnight. just ignore me tomorrow. buh-bye!

p.s. i miss my boyfriend!
p.p.s. alot!
p.p.p.s. this movie is killing me!
p.p.p.p.s. i just wanna have lots of really good sex!!!
p.p.p.p.p.s.Honey! come home! now!i love you! (everyone else please ignore this)