lucky duck
In reading other people's lj's I realize I really am glad I'm not in school right now. Of course everyone else thinks I'm ruining my life, but 'eh I'd rather be doing this than going to school b/c I'm supposed to and continuing to fuck up. I just need to be in a new place. Speaking of which I have a home now! Hooray! A guy I work with Dave has a 3 story townhouse so I get the whole basement to myself, mmm, love it I basically get a bedroom area, a bar, a bathroom and a little living room area with a fireplace! plus my own back deck! Can't wait till I actually get a bed down there for now I'm futoning it on the first floor. I miss st. thomas. It was great, I had great friends, and my honey. Argh. I get so frustrated with long distance, I want it all or nothing. Either we're together or I don't want to put myself through the emotional ups and downs of being so far apart. I know we did it for a year but this is a new relationship, I don't like it, I hate revolving around my phone! Maybe I should venture out new town, new state, new country for all I care, make new friends, be a new person, I'd like to get things done, inherit a smidgen of my father's workaholism. Oh well. There's so much I'm ready for that I'm not going for (suddenly Aladdin's "a whole new world" is playing in my ears) and vice versa talking about things that one minute I'm tickled to think about and the next I'm thinking "since when have i lost my mind?!" (marriage, engagement, etc). Oh well, atleast I'm back and still have some of my friends who haven't yet abandoned birmingham, anyway the holidays are coming up soon everyone will be home to visit!!