Well Fuck
Apparently I'm not allowed to be pissed off anymore . . . and even if I am, and punish myself for it, that's apparently not enough.
I've only just barely escaped the brink of spiritual death because of someone. I was torn forcibly from half of my soul, left to fend for myself, all while my shields had been dropped for my own form of self-punishment.
while I was at work.
I'm sure they would have been really thrilled to see me collapse to the ground, convulsing in agony. It was all I could do NOT to beg the day off as is. But I need the money first and foremost.
ALL of my chakra are closed. Slammed shut. And I'm barely able to connect with the other half of me.
I was already doing enough damage to myself out of guilt. I certainly did not deserve to be attacked in such a manner that I would likely die.
I really don't give two shits if you're still pissed off at me - At this point, coming so close to death because of your anger . . . I say you're the ones in the wrong for not listening to me. Or at least asking if I was doing anything to right my wrong. Yes, I just fucking admitted to being wrong. That's all you're getting from me for this. If you come at me demanding more, I'll turn that down. I've done PLENTY.
By the way, my abilities that are inherent from birth? they're gone. That should tell you how goddamn fucked up I am. Thank you, bitches. If you want to force me to suffer through more, then you're hella fucking misguided.
I'm sure you'll love having the attempted soul-murder (which would have killed me, BTW) on your conscience.
Enjoy that shit. All I was dealing with was a shitton of guilt from letting the allure of Atlantean energy get to me.
Don't even bother contacting me about this. I know what you're going to say. And I don't want to hear it. In this, I have full right to be pissed off. You're lucky I didn't die from your shit, or you'd have that guilt on you too.
I will apologize to cpt. data . . . sometime. I can't do any of the things he asked me to now. Maybe I'll be able to say something to him on KF . . . when I don't feel threatened by just appearing on there.
~~Ahnkashkyana OUT. FUCK YOU GUYS.
I've only just barely escaped the brink of spiritual death because of someone. I was torn forcibly from half of my soul, left to fend for myself, all while my shields had been dropped for my own form of self-punishment.
while I was at work.
I'm sure they would have been really thrilled to see me collapse to the ground, convulsing in agony. It was all I could do NOT to beg the day off as is. But I need the money first and foremost.
ALL of my chakra are closed. Slammed shut. And I'm barely able to connect with the other half of me.
I was already doing enough damage to myself out of guilt. I certainly did not deserve to be attacked in such a manner that I would likely die.
I really don't give two shits if you're still pissed off at me - At this point, coming so close to death because of your anger . . . I say you're the ones in the wrong for not listening to me. Or at least asking if I was doing anything to right my wrong. Yes, I just fucking admitted to being wrong. That's all you're getting from me for this. If you come at me demanding more, I'll turn that down. I've done PLENTY.
By the way, my abilities that are inherent from birth? they're gone. That should tell you how goddamn fucked up I am. Thank you, bitches. If you want to force me to suffer through more, then you're hella fucking misguided.
I'm sure you'll love having the attempted soul-murder (which would have killed me, BTW) on your conscience.
Enjoy that shit. All I was dealing with was a shitton of guilt from letting the allure of Atlantean energy get to me.
Don't even bother contacting me about this. I know what you're going to say. And I don't want to hear it. In this, I have full right to be pissed off. You're lucky I didn't die from your shit, or you'd have that guilt on you too.
I will apologize to cpt. data . . . sometime. I can't do any of the things he asked me to now. Maybe I'll be able to say something to him on KF . . . when I don't feel threatened by just appearing on there.
~~Ahnkashkyana OUT. FUCK YOU GUYS.