we'll float around and hang out on clouds
Resolution: No more pills for awhile. Last night consisted of not being able to walk or hold objects, throwing up for a half an hour, and then apparently just passing out in the middle of whatever I was doing. I think I've been letting myself get carried away. The hydros I can take or leave. I need to take a lot to feel anything, plus they tend to make me sick anyway. The valium though, I do love the valium. Alas, they have to go as well. I have to start cleaning up my life. Everything go so messed up. Everything is in chaos right now. I'm never going to be perfect, hell most of the time I doubt I'll even be "good", but damned if I'm gonna let myself become an addict. Damned if I'm gonna let people walk all over me. Damned if I'm going to let myself become a pathetic little girl again. I will conquer the world.