some stuff
Well, I finally wrote a message basically saying "see ya later" on the P:U! website. It's not a forever good-bye, at least I hope not. Like I've said, I just wasn't into it and have been busy drawing for other things. Lately I signed up to take part in the Phoenix Wright Musical Project, so I'm looking forward to helping their art team.
Lately I've been feeling a little overwhelmed. I'm not even taking a huge amount of units, I guess it's just a state of mind. I'm always tired and I'm slow to finish my work. I'm just in a funk, and I don't know the cause nor the cure. I guess I could start by going to bed earlier.
I've also been thinking about relationships and stuff. It started when a female friend asked if I'd ever thought about what my marriage will be like, and I answered that I doubted I'd have one at all. I feel so different from my roommates and friends, they all seem to have a boyfriend or girlfriend, or at least had one. I always thought that one day I'd suddenly be interested in girls and dating, maybe around high school, but it never really happened. There were crushes here and there, but my shyness and lack of confidence never changed. But I've always been okay with my lifestyle, so I don't think anything will ever happen. That's what makes me feel weird; the fact that society tells me it's wrong to have never dated or kissed at my age, but I'm fine with the way I am. So I'm not fine with the fact that I'm happy as I am? Urg, so confusing.
Lately I've been feeling a little overwhelmed. I'm not even taking a huge amount of units, I guess it's just a state of mind. I'm always tired and I'm slow to finish my work. I'm just in a funk, and I don't know the cause nor the cure. I guess I could start by going to bed earlier.
I've also been thinking about relationships and stuff. It started when a female friend asked if I'd ever thought about what my marriage will be like, and I answered that I doubted I'd have one at all. I feel so different from my roommates and friends, they all seem to have a boyfriend or girlfriend, or at least had one. I always thought that one day I'd suddenly be interested in girls and dating, maybe around high school, but it never really happened. There were crushes here and there, but my shyness and lack of confidence never changed. But I've always been okay with my lifestyle, so I don't think anything will ever happen. That's what makes me feel weird; the fact that society tells me it's wrong to have never dated or kissed at my age, but I'm fine with the way I am. So I'm not fine with the fact that I'm happy as I am? Urg, so confusing.