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Okay so I've had a wonderful night...and a bad night...I'm not going to explain. I'm tired now. Going to bed after I do this. G'night everyone. Hope you all have a wonderful day. (by the way: these are all pretty much describing my situation(s))
~I knew I would fall for him...I found it hard not to. He treated me with respect and I felt so special every time we talked. I had no idea that all these amazing things I felt for him would be ripped away so cruely. It seemed like we had a chance to be something so amazing, something that no one could touch but just like a sunny day has to come to and end...this wasn't made to last. You made me feel special...who could've guessed it was all a lie. You really made me believe you felt the same way about me...after all you were the one who said that you loved me. You didn't even blink when you tore my heart out. I could've poured my heart out to you, confessing everything I ever felt about you...and it woudln't have even made you smile. You told me that you couldn't commit to a relationship...well I wasn't asking for forever. I was only asking for right now. Do you think you could've told me that before you told me you loved me? We were never actually together yet we managed to get so close I kept telling you over and over I'd rather be your friend then your nothing at all but in the end, that's exactly what I turned out to be.
~This is me giving up. I can't fight for something that hurts me more than it helps me.
~These memories of you are playing like a film without sound. I can still feel myself losing myself in those quiet conversations. They captured my heart...there was something about you, that seemed different from everyone else. But you weren't. I can still "feel" your arms around me, theyubrought us closer and closer...but now I realize all they really did was put oceans between us. I can still "hear" the words you whispered to me. I can not only hear them, I can feel them echoing inside me. But they are empty echoes. I will always love you. I will always come back to you...but never in a physical form. I can't do it again, no matter how worth it you are or are not. This time, how could it be different? What was wrong with all the other times? This is just a repeat of my favorite television show. It has to end sometime...
~I haven't lost my morals. I'm just tired of being the "good girl." I want those lonely nights to turn into something else. I want the attention from guys just as much as the next girl and I know I can't find it sitting in my own house. I have to get off my butt and get out there and ask for it. I'm not a slut or a player...I just want them to know that I'm here.
~I don't want to be with somebody who would rather be with me than with nobody. I want to be with someone who would rather be with me than ANYBODY.
~You have your other friends, they were there when you cried. I didn't mean to hurt you then. But best friends won't leave your side. When I needed you most, when I needed a friend, you let me down NOW, like I let you down THEN.
~There are certain people that are not meant to fit into your life, no matter how much you want them to.
~It's time to let go. It's time to say goodbye. No more excuses, no more tears to cry. There's been so many changes. I've been so damn confused. All along you were the one, all the time I never knew. I want you to be happy, you're my best friend. But it's so hard to let you go, with all that could have been. I'll always have the memories and someone else will always have you, fate has a way of changing things just when you dont' want it to.
Okay...I'm exhausted so I'm going to bed now. G'night everyone. <3
~I knew I would fall for him...I found it hard not to. He treated me with respect and I felt so special every time we talked. I had no idea that all these amazing things I felt for him would be ripped away so cruely. It seemed like we had a chance to be something so amazing, something that no one could touch but just like a sunny day has to come to and end...this wasn't made to last. You made me feel special...who could've guessed it was all a lie. You really made me believe you felt the same way about me...after all you were the one who said that you loved me. You didn't even blink when you tore my heart out. I could've poured my heart out to you, confessing everything I ever felt about you...and it woudln't have even made you smile. You told me that you couldn't commit to a relationship...well I wasn't asking for forever. I was only asking for right now. Do you think you could've told me that before you told me you loved me? We were never actually together yet we managed to get so close I kept telling you over and over I'd rather be your friend then your nothing at all but in the end, that's exactly what I turned out to be.
~This is me giving up. I can't fight for something that hurts me more than it helps me.
~These memories of you are playing like a film without sound. I can still feel myself losing myself in those quiet conversations. They captured my heart...there was something about you, that seemed different from everyone else. But you weren't. I can still "feel" your arms around me, theyubrought us closer and closer...but now I realize all they really did was put oceans between us. I can still "hear" the words you whispered to me. I can not only hear them, I can feel them echoing inside me. But they are empty echoes. I will always love you. I will always come back to you...but never in a physical form. I can't do it again, no matter how worth it you are or are not. This time, how could it be different? What was wrong with all the other times? This is just a repeat of my favorite television show. It has to end sometime...
~I haven't lost my morals. I'm just tired of being the "good girl." I want those lonely nights to turn into something else. I want the attention from guys just as much as the next girl and I know I can't find it sitting in my own house. I have to get off my butt and get out there and ask for it. I'm not a slut or a player...I just want them to know that I'm here.
~I don't want to be with somebody who would rather be with me than with nobody. I want to be with someone who would rather be with me than ANYBODY.
~You have your other friends, they were there when you cried. I didn't mean to hurt you then. But best friends won't leave your side. When I needed you most, when I needed a friend, you let me down NOW, like I let you down THEN.
~There are certain people that are not meant to fit into your life, no matter how much you want them to.
~It's time to let go. It's time to say goodbye. No more excuses, no more tears to cry. There's been so many changes. I've been so damn confused. All along you were the one, all the time I never knew. I want you to be happy, you're my best friend. But it's so hard to let you go, with all that could have been. I'll always have the memories and someone else will always have you, fate has a way of changing things just when you dont' want it to.
Okay...I'm exhausted so I'm going to bed now. G'night everyone. <3