another night with no sleep
So i slept all day..again..
Woke back up at like 1:30 am..and have yet to go back to sleep..
My mind is a mosh pit of thoughts..
---I think i am gonna go live with jeds friend emily sience i cant go live with Aubrey any more..which makes me sad i was looking forward to living with Aubrey =[
but we will still hang out..
---I am gonna go job searching here soon..my step mom is going to give me a bus pass so i can..which is nice... =]
---I tryed to call Darrell back today [cuz i called him earlier] but he didnt pick up his phone..this is commen he tells me to call and i do but he dose not pick up..Its Quite irritating... BLAH...I would really like to go hang out with him...I miss him... =[
---Darrell was mad at marla..but now he is not i guess..she said they are talking again and it was just a big misunderstanding...Thats pretty cool..she was scared that if he didnt talk to her no one else would...I acually like Marla..even tho i hate the fact the i KNOW Darell likes her ALOT..but as far as i know she dose not like him like that..And she has a boyfriend too...I just cant belive how beautiful she is..It scares me..I always feel very insignifacant when someone who is that beautiful is around...
---Ok so i need my GRYNCH fix i think i am having withdrawls..I have not been to a show in like a month..this is not a good thing...I cant wait till the WOW hall show..It could not come soon enof..
---I think i need to go hang out in Cg sometime soon i havent seen any of my friend down there forever..I have been hanging out here in Eugene all the time..I feel like i am being a bad friend not going to see them and everything..I hope they havent just forgotten me that would make me sad =[
---I have been thinking about the past alot lately..and it makes me sad..I hate some of the things i have done and i want to take it all back...even if it means my life would be insainly heactic..I just hate the coices i have..and i just cant forgive myself...blah..i hate being stuck in the past...
well yeah so these are some of my thoghts i have alot more going thru my head but i dont really want to sit her forever typing it all out there is way too much
Woke back up at like 1:30 am..and have yet to go back to sleep..
My mind is a mosh pit of thoughts..
---I think i am gonna go live with jeds friend emily sience i cant go live with Aubrey any more..which makes me sad i was looking forward to living with Aubrey =[
but we will still hang out..
---I am gonna go job searching here soon..my step mom is going to give me a bus pass so i can..which is nice... =]
---I tryed to call Darrell back today [cuz i called him earlier] but he didnt pick up his phone..this is commen he tells me to call and i do but he dose not pick up..Its Quite irritating... BLAH...I would really like to go hang out with him...I miss him... =[
---Darrell was mad at marla..but now he is not i guess..she said they are talking again and it was just a big misunderstanding...Thats pretty cool..she was scared that if he didnt talk to her no one else would...I acually like Marla..even tho i hate the fact the i KNOW Darell likes her ALOT..but as far as i know she dose not like him like that..And she has a boyfriend too...I just cant belive how beautiful she is..It scares me..I always feel very insignifacant when someone who is that beautiful is around...
---Ok so i need my GRYNCH fix i think i am having withdrawls..I have not been to a show in like a month..this is not a good thing...I cant wait till the WOW hall show..It could not come soon enof..
---I think i need to go hang out in Cg sometime soon i havent seen any of my friend down there forever..I have been hanging out here in Eugene all the time..I feel like i am being a bad friend not going to see them and everything..I hope they havent just forgotten me that would make me sad =[
---I have been thinking about the past alot lately..and it makes me sad..I hate some of the things i have done and i want to take it all back...even if it means my life would be insainly heactic..I just hate the coices i have..and i just cant forgive myself...blah..i hate being stuck in the past...
well yeah so these are some of my thoghts i have alot more going thru my head but i dont really want to sit her forever typing it all out there is way too much