my emo time.. but in a good way.

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for some odd reason.. ive been giving things a different perspective.
im not quite sure what gave me a push towards this direction,
but i do know that it is for the better.
due to watching meet joe black.. i know this sounds completely weird,
but i can see in me now the things i never noticed before.. things that completely made no sense,
or what others saw in me that i didnt.
my dad has completely changed my life.
i never thought it would have such an effect as drastic as this one,
but i was wrong, oh so wrong was i.
and yes i am only 15.. so why am i so desperately trying to find love?
i guess i have found the answer..
it is because i lack that love which i miss so from my dad..
and ever since there has been a hole in my heart which shattered it completely.
i never thought i would be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but all of a sudden i am now.
and its such a great feeling.
why was i so serious about some things? no not drama..
because i had nothing else to be serious about.
i thought i lost everything due to one cause, but i realized i didnt lose anything.
if anything i gained something.. a new vision.. a new life in a way.
this entry is so intense, and im never like this. not like anyone reads this so its somewhere where i can getaway to express myself. and its a great thing.
so from here on out, ive realized the best of me.. the best of life.
so take advantage of it...