I miss her
I miss her but i don't...but i do. How am i supposed to be content knowing that she's with someone else now after 2 years of being together, and on top of that it's some random guy. How can someone who's completely in love with me, hurt me like this? I dont get it...and the thing is it seems so simple, move on-she's fucked up, but how can i move on if there isnt a day that goes by that i think of her and i know she thinks of me still. I've had the chance to be with someone else on numerus occasions but whats the point...i dont want some silly relationship based on sexual pleasure, i want to be with someone who truly understands me and brings out the good in me, someone who the only way to explain being with them is "that feeling"...that crazy unexplainable feeling. It kills me inside, to know that if we were strong enough to tell people that we were together everything would have been A okay. But the society got the best of both of us and now all we're left to do is ponder about what the other is up to. So i guess that's how its going to be. And this whole thing with Bush tryin to make same sex marriages illegal, thats the most ridiculus thing i've ever heard...its not the sex you marry, its the person, whats beyond the outer covering. I mean come on now, yeh, the "social norm" is for a male and female to be together, but are you supposed to just ignore your feelings if its for someone of the same sex. It's hard for people as it is to admit their feelings about someone of the same sex, because it's different, but to make it feel like loving someone of the same sex is illegal is completely degrading, not only to the individual but to the society as a whole. Why is this world so weird and complicated??