slowly but surely

[swtrthnwn]

"ever after" is such a wonderful movie. for those of you who have not seen it (ahem... i know who you are) - you MUST. i will force you to. wheee, being awake at 5 am is so wonderful. NOT. my head/neck hurt so much that decapitation would be a relief. the job search continues. what fun, what fun. still have to decide WHAT i want to do. anything that gives me good money, at this point. i guess. i still need to be REASONABLY happy while i work. i keep biting my lip. it hurts. so, odd thing - i read the chapter minutes for ZTA over a month ago, and it said "card being passed around to send to allie" and i was like "oh, how sweet." but then wished i hadn't read it, cause then it'd be a surprise. well, now i regret reading it - because there is no card. oh well, got my hopes up. saw dr. verville at katie's wedding - that was a little awkward. and other people from wac. felt weird because i just kinda disappeared and i have no idea what people think of me. makes me feel way too self-conscious. katie's wedding - was wonderful. she looked absolutely beautiful, and so wonderfully happy. and alanna and ken spent a night here, before the wedding. that was cool. short night, they left by like 8 in the morning to go help katie get ready. wish my mom wasn't crazy. we cleaned the entire freakin house, especially the spare room cause ken's allergic to kitties, and they stayed here for like 10 hours. quite pointless, if you ask me. it's not like they even saw more than a few rooms. whatever. but that's my mom. it's ok - we didn't clean much on sunday cause of it. that's a good thing. so i'm trying to figure out what job i should get and what classes i should take at the comm. college over the summer (need to keep my health insurance). want to take an art class or two. intro to psych, intro to sociology. and some sort of PE/health class. want to get in shape. the good thing is that the summer courses are split up into two sessions, so i can take two classes the first session, and two the second session. and still be "full-time" but still be able to work full time. and then in the fall, the have the once-a-day night classes i can take. and therefore still work full-time. i'm hoping to move in with angel tho, maybe august/september-ish. he still has to talk to brian. but if i do, i guess i'd just change jobs again (not gonna commute from westminster to annapolis area, no thanks). and then go to carroll comm. they're not as good as anne arundel (aacc is the #1 community college in the nation - bet you didn't know that). but they'll do. it's not like it'll make a big difference anyway. i'm thinking i can get a general studies associate's degree, and then transfer to towson maybe. (i need to talk to towson - i'll do this if the assoc. deg. covers all my general ed. requirements, otherwise, it'd be a waste). i think i'll get a bachelor's in spanish. but fulfill the requirements i would need for nursing and pre-med. (just about the same anyway). that may or may not let me get a minor or major in bio - doesn't matter. i just want something to show for my spanish. and then i can decide what to do after that. i'm thinking i could enter a nursing program for second-bachelor's-degree. it's accelerated. at least a semester or two quicker than getting your first bachelor's in nursing. and it'd actually probly end up being quicker for me to do that way in all respects. plus i really really really want something to show for spanish, and i want to improve my abilities. i want to be fluent - imagine the jobs i could get. going to call anne arundel medical center tomorrow and see if they have translator jobs. that'd be cool. my sister was trying to convince me that i shouldn't move in with angel so soon. that we should wait a while, that it could make or break our relationship. i'm not scared of our relationship breaking. altho he is a little mad at me today. oops. but she was saying i could move in with her and her friends in like may. ha, i'm not so sure living with my sister would be a good idea. we drive each other too crazy. at least angel and i have learned HOW to live with each other (i spent large amounts of time living in his dorm at WAC). my sister and i still can't figure that out. (yeah yeah, i know, i ramble). i wish i could sleep - sleep normal hours that is. but i'm scared to take the ambien - because i heard you get withdrawal from it after using it for a week - that it becomes difficult to fall asleep when not on it because your body adjusts. i'll just have to try it one day when i have nothing to do the next day (ha, gee, days like that? in my life?) grrr... that's every day. except tomorrow of course. i have to cover for someone at the birth center tomorrow. so it seemed silly to sleep. i knew i wouldn't be able to wake before 7. yeah right. and then my mom would just get pissed at me. and i'm tired of people being disappointed/mad at me. anyway - gonna go job searching tomorrow, and send out fax resumes, etc. blah, dad is up. gonna amuse him with my rambling. oh - and that picture is the ACTUAL DaVinci painting that is depicted in "ever after" - but the one in the movie has actually been re-rendered to look more like drew barrymore. pretty picture. have a print to hang on my wall.

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