my first week
i can't tell you how exhausted i am. it's even worse than student teaching + classes. omg i'm so tired.
i love my classes though. sort of. they're pretty good. i have a few students who already aren't doing any work, one who doesn't even bring his work home. i have .. all very talkative students but they'll get down to work if they need to. sort of. no, they just keep talking and talking. i have one class that's a lot better than the other though. i'm still trying to remember everyone's names, especially some of the girls who are very quiet. i have a couple in my class. whenever i look at them, i think about their future and how they are so young and how their relationship right now is so silly. but they're so carefree that it makes me sad.
i had a kid look at my ring and say i was married. then i had another kid, that same day, ask me if i had a bf. it made me very very sad.
sometimes, i stand in front of class in disbelief that i actually have my own class and they look at me and listen to me because i'm their teacher. then i have flashbacks to my elementary school days when i look at my teacher and how old they are and how different they are, and i wonder if my kids look at me like that. because i don't feel as ready and as prepared as my teachers looked. i stand in front of class and i can't believe i have 36 students that are in my hands. that listen to what i say. these 36 students aren't any harder to handle than my 20 students in 3rd grade. i was freaked out for nothing.
i am absolutely exhausted. i thought the weekend and sleeping in would help, but now i'm even more tired. i've been waking up at 5 and leaving at 5:30, getting to school around 7 and prepping until class starts. then i stay after till 7 and get home around 8ish. i am perfectly find until i sit in my chair and turn on the computer, and all of a sudden exhaustion sets in. and then i have to go to sleep. so, within this week, i have learned that no matter what i take home, i end up not doing anything. so i must get work done at school before i leave.
there are sites that are blocked at school and it annoys me because then i can't check mail and so forth. i've been slowly setting up my classroom. this weekend i was going to go out shopping for stuff, but .. it's almost 1 and i'm so tired and i just want to go to sleep. but i have to pick up my grandparents from the airport. my plan for today was to go shopping and then pick up grandparents then stop by my classroom to organize stuff. roar.
the week went by really quickly. they hired my partner teacher on thursday (yay!) so now i get to prep with him. he is so hot. omg. i saw him and i was like.. whohooo! and then i talked to another teacher yesterday and she said he was gay. -_- oh well, i don't need any of that drama anyway. i have too much to worry about with my kids.
i've been planning daily instead of weekly. it's been really horrible. i can't.. seem, to plan ahead! ugh!!! i stress out after school bc i have to figure out what i'm going to do the next day. i haven't started anything for my masters. i can't get any work done at home (you see, i'm ljing!) but they haven't given me a laptop yet. i don't have the keys to the cabinets in my room so i can't store anything. i am still learning how to use the stupid macs they have in class. i'm tempted to just bring my computer there to use instead bc macs are silly. but, i still want my laptop, and projector, and stereos, and a pencil sharpener, and... /sigh. too much. i need, like.. a week break already. *_*
k, i'm going to stop by the teacher store before i go to lax. exhausted!!!
i love my classes though. sort of. they're pretty good. i have a few students who already aren't doing any work, one who doesn't even bring his work home. i have .. all very talkative students but they'll get down to work if they need to. sort of. no, they just keep talking and talking. i have one class that's a lot better than the other though. i'm still trying to remember everyone's names, especially some of the girls who are very quiet. i have a couple in my class. whenever i look at them, i think about their future and how they are so young and how their relationship right now is so silly. but they're so carefree that it makes me sad.
i had a kid look at my ring and say i was married. then i had another kid, that same day, ask me if i had a bf. it made me very very sad.
sometimes, i stand in front of class in disbelief that i actually have my own class and they look at me and listen to me because i'm their teacher. then i have flashbacks to my elementary school days when i look at my teacher and how old they are and how different they are, and i wonder if my kids look at me like that. because i don't feel as ready and as prepared as my teachers looked. i stand in front of class and i can't believe i have 36 students that are in my hands. that listen to what i say. these 36 students aren't any harder to handle than my 20 students in 3rd grade. i was freaked out for nothing.
i am absolutely exhausted. i thought the weekend and sleeping in would help, but now i'm even more tired. i've been waking up at 5 and leaving at 5:30, getting to school around 7 and prepping until class starts. then i stay after till 7 and get home around 8ish. i am perfectly find until i sit in my chair and turn on the computer, and all of a sudden exhaustion sets in. and then i have to go to sleep. so, within this week, i have learned that no matter what i take home, i end up not doing anything. so i must get work done at school before i leave.
there are sites that are blocked at school and it annoys me because then i can't check mail and so forth. i've been slowly setting up my classroom. this weekend i was going to go out shopping for stuff, but .. it's almost 1 and i'm so tired and i just want to go to sleep. but i have to pick up my grandparents from the airport. my plan for today was to go shopping and then pick up grandparents then stop by my classroom to organize stuff. roar.
the week went by really quickly. they hired my partner teacher on thursday (yay!) so now i get to prep with him. he is so hot. omg. i saw him and i was like.. whohooo! and then i talked to another teacher yesterday and she said he was gay. -_- oh well, i don't need any of that drama anyway. i have too much to worry about with my kids.
i've been planning daily instead of weekly. it's been really horrible. i can't.. seem, to plan ahead! ugh!!! i stress out after school bc i have to figure out what i'm going to do the next day. i haven't started anything for my masters. i can't get any work done at home (you see, i'm ljing!) but they haven't given me a laptop yet. i don't have the keys to the cabinets in my room so i can't store anything. i am still learning how to use the stupid macs they have in class. i'm tempted to just bring my computer there to use instead bc macs are silly. but, i still want my laptop, and projector, and stereos, and a pencil sharpener, and... /sigh. too much. i need, like.. a week break already. *_*
k, i'm going to stop by the teacher store before i go to lax. exhausted!!!