My thoughts
Have you ever thought about someone to where you dream of them? I do, i miss them so much but they are not in my life anymore due to them closing the chapter of our friendship, been about 6 years now and it's so sad to me cause they were like my best friend, family it felt. He will never understand how much he meant to me, i tried to befriend him again but he said no because he knows that our friendship to him was not as meaningful as mine was to him. So i get to see him in my dreams and i always say sorry and i miss you and he says i know but move on. It's hard for me and i know that chapter is closed forever but it's really hard for me to accept that when all i wanted was a friendship that was a long friendship that i see other people have, it's hard for me to accept that no matter how hard i tried to keep friends, something always stood in the way. Now i have my fiancé and my two kids and that's it. It's just not fair when all i want is someone to talk to, hang with, reminiscing about growing up with each other... sigh just in my dreams i guess, getting older for me has been so lonely. I wish he would be my friend but i guess it's time i try to close the chapter cause rereading it isn't good for my mind i guess. Sometimes it hurts to the point i wish i never met him so maybe i would feel ok.
My thought 💭