Missing the younger years
When I look at myself today being almost 40 I really really miss the younger years as I'm sure everybody does when they're older; reminiscing about the past, wishing that they had done stuff different; realizing that those differences could have mattered had they cared about them back then. I miss a lot of my childhood in the teenage years! I miss the people that I knew; had I known then what I know now, I would not have been friends with them. I would have chosen a different path and maybe gotten better friends that actually were my friends, not just to my face but also behind my back. I miss the people I hung out with simply because I just wish that it would have worked out and we would have stayed friends, I just know that in my heart it hurts being older because a lot of those friends who I thought would be around aren't and I guess that's the one thing that hurts about getting older. Going out to restaurants and seeing teenagers just being themselves and hanging out with their friends and playing pool or just having fun definitely makes me wish I could go back in time and relive those years again. I wish the people that knew me back then still cared about me today enough to stay friends but that's okay because I've accepted the fact that getting older means certain sacrifices have to be made. The one thing that hurts the most is growing old without friends that's just really rough and it is really hard at times when you want to talk to somebody about something but nobody's there so you just talk to yourself. I miss my younger years but I look forward to the older ones I just wish I had friends that I could enjoy it with as well