[Everytime I try to fly I fall...]
I guess it's alright if I talk about it...I mean I haven't really talked about it since it happened...That "it" being "him" being Ash...
I miss him. I hate not knowing he's around to make me smile and the truth is Ash is the only person other than Touga I've really smiled for. Ash knows me better than anyone anymore and I want him to know that I knew whilst he was here and not with her...*Sigh* I mean we've been through so much together since we met...that whole thing with that crazy biker guy, Bruhim...even helping me cope with what I did to little Sophia's parents...it hasn't been easy.
Sometimes I sit back and think would my life be any easier if I wasn't half dragon, I mean would I still be so bothered about heading up to the land of the dead to find that bastard who murdered Touga in the first place...am I really being stupid about this whole thing? And sometimes I wonder if that's why Ash left...because he knew what I was capable of...I mean there's thousands of reasons he's probaly better off with Sheila, she's prettier, smarter...heh hell I bet she even knows how to...well you know. That stuff I'm not really all that good with..I keep having to remind myself I'm still a kid sometimes, I'm hardly what you'd call a mature woman now am I?
But I do want him here...with me, I want to rest my head on his shoulders and have him tell me that everything's going to be ok in the end like it always is....but without him here that's not a possibility is it?
I just...love him so much and...I really, REALLY want him back.
...Please...
I miss him. I hate not knowing he's around to make me smile and the truth is Ash is the only person other than Touga I've really smiled for. Ash knows me better than anyone anymore and I want him to know that I knew whilst he was here and not with her...*Sigh* I mean we've been through so much together since we met...that whole thing with that crazy biker guy, Bruhim...even helping me cope with what I did to little Sophia's parents...it hasn't been easy.
Sometimes I sit back and think would my life be any easier if I wasn't half dragon, I mean would I still be so bothered about heading up to the land of the dead to find that bastard who murdered Touga in the first place...am I really being stupid about this whole thing? And sometimes I wonder if that's why Ash left...because he knew what I was capable of...I mean there's thousands of reasons he's probaly better off with Sheila, she's prettier, smarter...heh hell I bet she even knows how to...well you know. That stuff I'm not really all that good with..I keep having to remind myself I'm still a kid sometimes, I'm hardly what you'd call a mature woman now am I?
But I do want him here...with me, I want to rest my head on his shoulders and have him tell me that everything's going to be ok in the end like it always is....but without him here that's not a possibility is it?
I just...love him so much and...I really, REALLY want him back.
...Please...