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Have you ever felt really shitty without being able to pin point a reason? That basically sums up the past two days. I actually shed a tear yesterday, and I hardly ever cry. I guess it's cause things never seem and haven't turned out quite how I hoped. A lot of little things started to build on one another, and I just couldn't hold it in anymore. I think I made things even more awkward/worse, but I am glad I somewhat expressed my opinion. I can never make decisions for myself. I always rely SOOO much on other people, and yesterday I realized that I can't do that anymore. I need to grow up and become more independent. I always base my life subject to whim, rather than decision. I want things to be different, but I can't figure out how to make it change. I am so much better at helping other people than myself.
Wish me luck.
Wish me luck.