day 53.
Day 42
Your Name: roxas tyler hart.
Suicidal Ideation: 7/10
Homicidal Ideation: 0/10
Amount of Sleep Last Night: 5 hours
Any Lucid or Vivid Dreams? Explain: lucid dreams, yeah. i'm learning how to do that. anything to give me something to do.
Moods Experienced Today: apathy.
Mood Triggers: nothing.
Significant Thoughts of the Day: ...it's been a month since anyone has significantly pissed me off.
Favorite Time of Day and Why: mealtimes. my meds are making me lose weight and i've been trying to indulge as much as possible. haha, fuck you, diets.
Least Favorite Time of Day and Why: free time. can't see axel.
How You Are Enjoying Your Therapy: house is a dick and the doctors are fucking high for putting me on all those meds.
Noticeable Improvements: without being around axel24/7 i'm a lot calmer and shit and i'm sure the new meds have something to do with that. i've never felt so out of it my entire life but i think they lessened my dosage. i miss the sex and i kind of miss getting all pissed and batshit crazy over stupid shit. but... it's like i can't really bring myself to care about anything anymore?
ah, fuck this psychology shit. it's obviously not helping, you know? and all this playing with medicine is fucked up.
i wish they still did lobotamies like back in the old days. my life might be a little easier if i was missing half my brain.
Your Name: roxas tyler hart.
Suicidal Ideation: 7/10
Homicidal Ideation: 0/10
Amount of Sleep Last Night: 5 hours
Any Lucid or Vivid Dreams? Explain: lucid dreams, yeah. i'm learning how to do that. anything to give me something to do.
Moods Experienced Today: apathy.
Mood Triggers: nothing.
Significant Thoughts of the Day: ...it's been a month since anyone has significantly pissed me off.
Favorite Time of Day and Why: mealtimes. my meds are making me lose weight and i've been trying to indulge as much as possible. haha, fuck you, diets.
Least Favorite Time of Day and Why: free time. can't see axel.
How You Are Enjoying Your Therapy: house is a dick and the doctors are fucking high for putting me on all those meds.
Noticeable Improvements: without being around axel24/7 i'm a lot calmer and shit and i'm sure the new meds have something to do with that. i've never felt so out of it my entire life but i think they lessened my dosage. i miss the sex and i kind of miss getting all pissed and batshit crazy over stupid shit. but... it's like i can't really bring myself to care about anything anymore?
ah, fuck this psychology shit. it's obviously not helping, you know? and all this playing with medicine is fucked up.
i wish they still did lobotamies like back in the old days. my life might be a little easier if i was missing half my brain.