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Saturday ~OCT 1, 2005~
The Drag ShowI went to the drag show and hauled Tara's gimp-ass over there with me! I ran into Jake Santucci there, too! Jake gained a bit of weight, but he's still my favorite ZBT person! Gawd, I love that man in a completely platonic way! Tara made it all the way through the first half but then her back and hips started ( Read more... )
2. Yes,it was that Mikey! He is FN awesome in class! It would be such a drag if he weren't there.
3. uhmm....
4. thank you so very very much!!!
5. it was horniness and just kinda a makeout thing... I was getting really depressed over turning 21 b/c I hadn't had sex in 10 months (which we didn't have sex, boston and I)- and I hadn't made out with ANYONE in 7 months!!! that's more than half a year... I needed to get some tension out of me. I hope I didn't fuck with his head. I was really wanting to chill sometime and remain cool.
6. Nick and I are going really slowly... I've never built a relationship before. Hell, i've never had a boyfriend before. All I can think about is sex sex sex but instead of sex sex sex I have to sit there and watch movies, play video games, and THINK about jumping his fucking bones. This is so hard b/c Nick is kinda quiet and I'm so uneasy in silence. I feel like i end up talking too much, but he's invited me out several times, so I imagine he likes me, too! I hope so. I don't want to make him think i'm a slut or anything and I we have so much in common! I love LOVE LOVE his music! he's one of those people like that thoroughly loves his unique blending of genres like classical with rock, strings and orchestra type shit with rap, techno with opera, etc.... I mean, how fucking cool is that! I think we could swap music for hours. Then he's a total comic geek, too! He's a trekkie, and his favorite series of star trek is Deep Space Nine!!! I LOOOOOOVE DEEP SPACE NINE! And I'm so incedibly turned on by him..... ugh. I think i'm too horny for my own good, and I want him to know I like him, but i'm not sure on how to express that without physical interpretation. I ended up hanging out with him yesterday, and then when I had to leave I left... but immediately ran back downstairs and asked, "You are single, right?" ::BIG GRIN:: He's like yeah, I say, "okay!! GREAT!!!" I run back up to my apartment. How stupid!!!! argh. but if he didn't like me he wouldn't have asked me to dinner tonight and then when I didn't get the message in time, i texted him that I was sorry but was gone when he called. He texted back and asked if I'd like to come down and watch Buffy and Angel with him. So of course I go down and chill. We watch and idly chit-chat. I just don't know what questions and things to ask and well... ugh. I feel so out of my league- and I feel so bad that every move he makes i think of sex! ARGH.... but I soooo totally enjoy listening to what he has to say b/c it sounds so well thought out and even kinda meaningful. AGH... I need to stop rambling! DAVID!!! WHAT DO I NEED TO DO! This was like our 3rd "get to know you, hanging out date-but not really a date b/c we're getting to know eachother kinda deal." Tomorrow we'll be walking to school together I'm very happy. What would you do in this situation?
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