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Saturday ~OCT 1, 2005~
The Drag Show
I went to the drag show and hauled Tara's gimp-ass over there with me! I ran into Jake Santucci there, too! Jake gained a bit of weight, but he's still my favorite ZBT person! Gawd, I love that man in a completely platonic way! Tara made it all the way through the first half but then her back and hips started being disagreeable and I had to quickly drop her off at the apartment (good thing we live super close so it took no time at all)
I must say that the first half was totally cool! Stevie and Ar-taco (I just can't spell his name properly, but it sounds like "Ar-teh-go". I used to know how to spell it, too. He was always over at the apartment chilling with Tony and Jemel.) So anyways, Stevie, and taco put on one hell of a friggin' performance!!! I was so incredibly amazed. Artecgo has always been so great at performing and he's really got a good heart, too!
Brittany Queers totally rocked, too! Brent put sooooo much energy into his performance!
Those are the two that stick out most in my mind.... OH YEAH!! And there was this one drag queen who dressed like someone from Dr. Seuss. She kept pulling out babies from everywhere and it was so funny. but then once that little song was over she went into another which kinda ruined it for me b/c it wasn't as fun to watch as the initial experience from when she started but Tara got a major kick out of the babies coming from everywhere, too.
During the break, two little girls (they looked like 15 or 16) came up to me to tell them that their "hot friend" thought i was extremely attractive- i guess they used the word hot, but i didn't want to say "hot" for fear of sounding redundant. To use the same adjective in the same sentence is not a good thing. I said thank you very much to the two young ladies and tried to focus my attention elsewhere. I mean, if these girls were that young, how old was their friend? Can you say Jailbait? So they eventually took the hint and i went back to talking with Jake and his girlfriend Andria- who is such an amazing woman! She's also a bodybuilder! Now, that is cool. Jake also introduced me to a new ZBT pledge named PJ. I was told it stood for Peter Japan. I don't get it since his name isn't peter and he's not from Japan, but whatever. He is asian and he seems like he'd be cool to hang around. I hope to chill with him later!
Also during the intermission of the drag show, I saw Jonathan (he's the dude i dated for like a week last year). He's still looking pretty good, but he... well, he was wearing some leather gear. That was kinda interesting, b/c I had no idea he was into any of that.
The next half of the drag show started and we all took our seats. I hate to say this, but i really thought the second half sucked. I was so bored. There were a few good songs and a few good performances, but it just wasn't as "fun" as the first half- too many slower songs. During a few of the songs Jake and Andria encouraged me to get up and dance b/c they were getting bored and they thought i'd provide some entertainment, and hell, i had sooooo much energy in me, that I really wanted to anways. So I did. I danced my little gay boy heart out and i got PJ doing a little with me. I may have looked retarded, but it made the experience so much more enjoyable.
Then after the show, those two lil' girls from earlier brought their gay guy up to say hi, and I said hi to him. He was a total looker, but it was almost immediate that he lacked any substance what so ever. Imean, the dude never shut-up and was such and egoist right off the bat. ugh.... But like i said, he was damned fine. I ended up blowing him off saying i'd prolly end up at a party on Rex street but only if Tara was doing okay.
For those who don't know, Tara has Marfan's syndrome which is a connective tissue disorder, and obviously, its extremely painful, especially since her's is coupled with Fibro-mayalgia (sp?). She's one sick, bitch! But damn, I fuckin' love this woman! No one can party like her!
I walked to Rex st. since it was close my apartment anyways. I got there and didn't see anyone i knew. I kinda just hovered for a while. The people I did see that knew me saw me but didn't say anything to me... I wonder why. I don't remember having ever parted badly from anyone. I just don't have any connections in the gay community, I suppose. I chilled out in the kitchen and some fag hag immediately latched on to me saying she had seen me at the drag show and was friends with that egotystical, 17 year old, Jeff guy. She said he was out on the phone so she'd keep me company. I was glad to oblige since no one else wanted to talk to me.
Later Jeff came out and started talking up a storm. This guy was so full of shit. I mean... I've never heard anyone so blatantly lie before. He was talking about how it takes like 8-12 shots before he gets a buzz and 14-18 before he gets drunk. Then he was talking about how he drinks full bottles alone in just a week or two...we're talking multiple bottles... in just two weeks... all by himself. He said he's prolly been through 30 bottles in just the last 2 months- and that was only including what he, himself had drunk. ugh.... what a loser.
~Sunday October 2nd, 2005~
My b-day
Midnight rolled around, and I'm still chillin and drinking with blabber mouth. The dude won't shut up. I'm thinking about leaving this party early b/c i'm really getting annoyed. Obviously the dude is out to just get a little bit of action and he's chosen me to be his supplier. What a wrong choice for him. Then, out of no where a rather good looking, nice guy named Clinton comes over and starts talking to me!! ALRIGHT!!! We're talking and yadda yadda, but then Jeff butts in. And every FN question i ask Clinton Jeff ends up answering for him. I finally snap out on Jeff's ass and tell him he needs to let Clint answer the questions I ask him and he can answer the questions that are directed towards him, otherwise, I don't want to hear anything from him. Jeff leaves after a moment to piss. I hope i pissed that annoying fly off! GAWD! Clint and I were talking some more... then Jeff came back and started buzzing around again. Clint leaves... then I put up with more of Jeff's incessant chatter, then Clinton comes back... then I swear Clinton is making more conversation with Jeff than with me. Hmmmm... could it be that clinton wanted to get in dude's pants while dude wanted to get in mine, and I wanted to get in Clinton's? What an annoying, vicious little circle! I later came to realize that Clinton didn't want in Jeff's pants, but i still felt a bit blown off by him, so I just kinda let the two be, but Jeff wasn't interested so Jeff takes off.
I see Benjamin Walkup come on in and he says hi, i say hi, and then Ben is gone... gone like the wind. It was such a brief 'hi' that I wanted to grab him and say, "are you okay?" I wasn't sure if he was drunk or what. Maybe he was mad at me b/c I didn't quite realize that he wanted us to be exclusive... but he was the one who broke his own morals by "cheating" as what would have been seen as through his own eyes by making out with someone at a party. I didn't mind it, but he minded that i didnt' mind and that I thought less of what "we" were than he did. So that was obviously a relationship stopper. However, I mostly wanted him to stick around to save me from Jeff. ugh...
okay.... now where was i? Well, I leave jeff and Clint alone. Clinton walks off shortly and Jeff goes on his own path. I strike up a conversation with a girl named Brittany that I hadn't seen in a while. She was drunk as fuck, but it was okay b/c she talked with me and kept me company. Finally, Brittany leaves me and I start talking to someone whom I really don't even remember. (ps- obviously, i was drinking by this point b/c it WAS my b-day).
Brittany comes back into the house and says there is someone who'd like me to give them a kiss outside named Jeff, and he's a total hottie. I tell Brit that I KNOW who Jeff is and I really don't want to go out and make out with Jeff- no matter how hot everyone (including myself) think(s) he is. Brit ends up begging me to go out there so I do, but i tell her I'm not going to make out with Jeff. She's like, 'alright... whatever' I sit on the porch, Jeff is so obviously drunk (8-12 shots my ass) and he's on the phone so I sit down on the cement steps of the back porch. I'm just chillin' eaves dropping in on like 4 different conversations going on around me b/c its fun to listen when you have no one to talk to. Then another dude sits down next to me... he's sitting there talking for a minute to his buddy, and then his buddy says he'll be right back. He's just sittin' there. I'm just sittin there, and well.... not much to really do, so I say, "hey! I'm sorry, I don't think i caught your name... or maybe i already introduced myself... or maybe that was to the dude who sat down b4 you... well, either way, i'm arthur." Dude introduces himself as Nick. We talk for minute. I ask where he lives and he says Homestead. I'm like, "NO WAY!!! I LIVE IN HOMESTEAD! What apartment do you live in?" He tells me he lives in 121. I think on it for a moment b/c i have such a hard time visualizing numbers and their meanings and I wanted to get an idea of where in the building 121 was especially since I was on a super buzz I couldn't quite manage the thought. So I was like, "oh... OOOHHH!!! OMG!! YOU LIVE RIGHT BELOW ME!!! I live in 221! I'm so sorry if we're too loud! Me and Tara are always playing our music to its maximum level of volume!"
Nick was like, "HA! I knew the people above us had to be gay b/c no straight person would play so much dance music!" Then Adam Ludwig came up to us and mentioned something about how he was glad that I had given up on my hunt for Matt Clay. I wasn't quite sure on how to take that but... I did call of the hunt so it didn't really concern me. I was a bit interested, though. All I got out of it was that Matt and Adam had once dated but not any longer, i guess. I don't really know anything for sure.
Then Nick had to go inside to help someone (appearantly it was Brittany he was helping- someone we both have in common, and I didn't know it). Jeff pops on over and I tell him i'm going to go home b/c I have to be up early to meet my mom so she can take me out to the pool halls to meet her friends. Jeff looked so very disappointed. But for real, man. All that talk about he knows this and that and has done this and that and can do this and that... especially when its all down right lies or blatant exaggerations. What B.S.
that morning, i meet up with my mom and she takes me out to the pool hall and I get to see her and a bunch of her friends play pool. I play with them, and they're all such fun people!!! The best part was I got all my drinks free b/c Crystal, my mom's very good lesbo friend, had bought me a bunch of balloons saying it was my 21st b-day. So I got a total of three Yagerbombs-sp?!! WOW!!! I was feeling good, and I loved that shit!!!
I later sobered up, and went back home to say hi to dad to see how he was doing. Wow.... what a bummer that was. I've never seen Frank so incredibly torn up. He was a total mess. He was crying right in front of me. I've never seen my dad cry... NEVER!!!! I mean... wow. He is not handling this divorce thing well. And from what he told me that my mom has said about him and the dogs, i can't blame him. It sounds like my mom is being a cold-hearted bitch about all of this. Ugh... i don't know what to do. My mom is my mom, and Frank is my dad!! I don't know what to do. I ask him if he'd like me to stay for a little while and talk or something. He tells me to go out and enjoy my b-day. I ask if he's sure and he shoo's me onward. Okay...
I leave and pick up Stephanie Duncan and bring her up to Muncie to chill with Tara and myself. Then Steph says something about how I had mentioned several weeks ago about spending my b-day at Chuckee cheese's. I'm like, hell, yeah!!! I get to the apartment and we pick up Tara. Tara says some "fine mother fucker" came to the apartment door to wish me a happy b-day. Someone named nick. I was like, REALLY??!!! HOORAY!!! We go to Chuckee cheese's and i actually had a really really good time. Stephanie paid for everything! That was so totally cool! I really didn't want nor need her to, but she did anyways, and wow.I love that girl! Tara made me a chocolate b-day cake, too.
then I had to drop steph back in Fishers kinda early b/c she had to be at work early the next morning.
I come back and Tara and I get fucked up and I go to bed.
Monday October 3rd, 2005 - present
Nick
Nothing special happened at school and it my day was pretty lame, but that evening I bring Tara down to apartment 121 and we say hi to our neighbors, Nick and Jacob. Right off the bat tara and I are thinking they both are hot and both want me! It was an extremely good feeling! We play some cards, have a few moderated drinks, and play air hockey. It was kickin'!!!
Tara says nick was a keeper and she'd be all up in that. I was thinking that Jacob was hotter, but Nick and I had so much in common it would be stupid to not wanna try dating him. The big problem is that I can't date both b/c, obviously, they live together. So I decided on Nick and I'm not going to touch on Jacob. I'm glad, too. Nick, I think is really gonna work out... I hope. I mean, he did ask me to walk with him on Thursday and Tuesdays to school, and he invited me out to dinner tonight- too bad i left my cell at home while I was at Wally-world.
But the other night, Nick and I were playing video games and damn... I just kept getting hornier and hornier. 10 months of celebacy really gets to you! For real! Hopefully that will be (e)rect(ified) in a month or two. I'm actually gonna be a good little homo (if that's even possible) and try to not put out for a good while! I say a minimum of 3 weeks before ANYTHING happens below the belt... and that is just presuming Nick and I hit it off. I really do like him, and he seems so awesome, and the shit we have in common is vast. I hope i don't screw anything up. But damn... the fantasies have already been rampaging through my head.