And then I ate the world loudly~
I don't know why but music makes me happy and want to dance and stomp and pretend I'm going to eat the world rarr because I feel like I'm ruler and I can and it's just invigorating in all these ways. My life in general feels a lot like listening to music but I'm not the ruler is the only thing I just feel really alive and wanting to stomp angrily and happily and I really don't know anymore I just want to be I want to be me I think I want to be everything I want to be a lot of things and I'm not really sure if I can be anymore and I think that I've lost a lot of my imagination and I want it back I really do, I want to be like a little kid again and just play like I used to, play house and pretend I'm a dinosaur and maybe a fish and maybe even a funny dog. I don't really know anymore and I feel like everything around me is loud and I might just die but in a happy way I think and I just got a new bird and I'm not sure what it's name will be maybe Fondue or Dahlia my mom wants me to name it but I think Dahlia is like a glass crystal figure thing and it's breakable and you can't really break fondue even though I've never eaten fondue to tell you the truth really but I like the world so much so much. This all seems silly and pointless but it matters so much right now to me which is silly but it does really.