I sleep so i dont have to feel
I woke up. This cough is pretty bad, i hope it goes away so i dont have to go to the doctor. That would not only fuck up my schedule but if i find out i have lung cancer then i'm just screwed. I hope Meg gets home soon so i can go back to the dorms, i dont know why i like it there so much but its comforting. More so than being at "home." I liked my time here more than i thought but as it turns out, its more like visiting an old friend than returning to the place you should feel most welcome in. I guess thats because before i left for college i wasnt really welcome. Not mentally anyway.
My roommate is a germaphobe so i have to go wipe everything in the room down with clorox wipes. Probably vaccum, finish a load of laundry and do the dishes. She'll be so proud, i'm usually not the one going psycho on the room. But things change.
I had a hard time sleeping last night. I probably fell asleep at 4 this morning after watching GI Jane. Before that came on i couldnt stop thinking about Kristen. I analyzed our entire relationship, the what if's, reasons why we are so right together, thinking of ways i could have avoided this summer. One day when i'm 102 years old there will be a space time traveling machine introduced. Me being rich and powerful, i will buy it, go back in time, never join target hope, and our relationship will be saved. And none of that butterfly effect garbage is going to happen.
I hate wishing, wishes, wishful thinking or any word or phrase associated with a wish or hope.
My roommate is a germaphobe so i have to go wipe everything in the room down with clorox wipes. Probably vaccum, finish a load of laundry and do the dishes. She'll be so proud, i'm usually not the one going psycho on the room. But things change.
I had a hard time sleeping last night. I probably fell asleep at 4 this morning after watching GI Jane. Before that came on i couldnt stop thinking about Kristen. I analyzed our entire relationship, the what if's, reasons why we are so right together, thinking of ways i could have avoided this summer. One day when i'm 102 years old there will be a space time traveling machine introduced. Me being rich and powerful, i will buy it, go back in time, never join target hope, and our relationship will be saved. And none of that butterfly effect garbage is going to happen.
I hate wishing, wishes, wishful thinking or any word or phrase associated with a wish or hope.