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I havent been able to sleep at night, i close my eyes and you're waiting there. so i keep them open tell my body to shut down my mind to relax. But youre still there. when i sleep its from exhaustion or from being so drunk that i just black out. Its so hard to lay in bed and all of a sudden all of my senses at the same time are taking trips down memory lane, making me miss you, making me toss and turn giving me headaches. My days are fine, i'm getting a great job that will soon get me a car and a new condo. I'm not going back to school for at least two quarters, until i can learn to take better care of my health. My mother insists on it. Me and Erin Regan have been seeing a lot of eachoter lately, which is awesome because i missed her too. I hung out with Zoe, Kate, Emily, Kid, K Grub all those kids and we had so much fun. My days are fine. I just wish i could get you out of my head, so i could sleep, so i can stop crying, so hope is gone and i'm not tempted to call. Its all so hard. I think i'll go home today, see my J fu and company go out and get trashed.