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I have come to the realization that I am for the most part comfortable with who I am and what I have done over the course of my life. I can live with most of my decisions and almost all of my actions. I think I am more comfortable in my own skin than I give myself credit for. My close friends are amazing and keep me sane, but I think more than anything else, I have grown up a lot.
However even though all of the above is true, there are certain things that make me want to just curl up into a ball and cry. There are some things that I greatly regret. There are some things I wish never happened and others that I wish did. More and more often I sit and wonder why my life has turned out the way it has, and why I haven't done anything to change it. I think that although I am relatively comfortable with who I am, I am not comfortable with where I am. The phrase "hindsight is 20/20" has never proven more true.
I'm not completely sure what I need, but I need something. Some giant part of me is missing and it makes me very uncomfortable. I think I need to thank games of "Never Have I Ever" and "Truth or Truth" during Freshmen Initiation for my contemplative tendencies. Some of the questions that were asked really hit home with me and made me really think about some things. The hole in my being that I had completely buried and tired to forget about had been rediscovered and I think it's bigger than it was before.
Conclusion: My life is out of joint.
However even though all of the above is true, there are certain things that make me want to just curl up into a ball and cry. There are some things that I greatly regret. There are some things I wish never happened and others that I wish did. More and more often I sit and wonder why my life has turned out the way it has, and why I haven't done anything to change it. I think that although I am relatively comfortable with who I am, I am not comfortable with where I am. The phrase "hindsight is 20/20" has never proven more true.
I'm not completely sure what I need, but I need something. Some giant part of me is missing and it makes me very uncomfortable. I think I need to thank games of "Never Have I Ever" and "Truth or Truth" during Freshmen Initiation for my contemplative tendencies. Some of the questions that were asked really hit home with me and made me really think about some things. The hole in my being that I had completely buried and tired to forget about had been rediscovered and I think it's bigger than it was before.
Conclusion: My life is out of joint.