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IT IS 413AM AND I HAVE BEEN WAITING IN MY CAR FOR MY MOM TO GET OUT OF WORK AT OUR SHARED PLACE OF EMPLOYMENT FOR UPWARDS OF THREE HOURS NOW.
Two of those hours were spent finishing reading The Vintner's Luck, which, oh my GOD. BEAUTIFUL BOOK. FEELINGS. I pretty much read it all within the last 24 hours and I have not been so engrossed in such a fucking good book in a LONG TIME.
Mmm books mmm. Next up to finish is the Shadow of the Wind, which I'm about 150 pages into so far. And I have at least three lined up after that so YEAH. I am excited to be excited about reading.
(MY MOTHER IS STILL NOT OUT OF WORK. WHY DO THEY NEED TO KEEP HER LATE. THERE ARE ONLY LIKE TWENTY POKER TABLES LEFT UP RIGHT NOW.)
It's been ages since I've posted here or done much commenting at all (but I'm always reading your posts!) because I am all sorts of a mess emotionally right now? Just a bad bad depressed slump which is attacking my ability to interact with human beings without buckets of insecurity. It is not a fun place to be and I want to say I am trying to fight it but mostly I am just waiting for it to go away? IDK. Books are helping.
I'm not really...doing much with my time lately? Working a bunch - my hours are generally 5pm to 1am so my schedule is like...wake up at 230, spend an hour adjusting to being awake/checking the Internet/maybe eating, showering at 330, leaving for work by 420, swiping in at 448, working til 100, getting home by 130, and then staying up until anywhere between 330 and 530. Sometimes I have to either wait or come back in a few hours to bring my mom home from work, too. I DON'T SEE MUCH SUNLIGHT but at least I get to drive into the pretty sunset on my way to work.
IDK! Life is kinda dreary! I feel like I haven't had an actual conversation with a friend-type-person in forever! It's getting cold! My mom still isn't out of work and she's had a half hour overtime! It is clear that I'm just rambling here until my mom starts walking down to where I am creepily parked in a no parking spot. Maybe I will take a picture and edit it into this entry.
On the bright side: I am well liked by management at work! And most of my coworkers are friendly. Coworker Brad is apparently SO DETERMINED to get me to play Street Fighter against him over magical playstation internet things that he is willing to spend forty dollars to buy the video game for me. I AM NOT LETTING HIM DO THIS. I TOLD HIM VERY FIRMLY NOT TO DO SO I would be awful at such a game anyway. Hopefully he'll give up bugging me to get this game soon.
Ummm. What else. I had my mom chop off a bunch of my hair at three in the morning the other day? It is very clearly not a professionally done haircut and is very scraggly and kind of uneven but at least it is more comfortable than all my gross hair before. And it was fun.
It is 435 so now my mom probably isn't getting out until 5 :( my head really hurts :( I would like to go home :(
Okay I think I've gone on about enough here. Um. Hi LJ. I miss you. <3
Two of those hours were spent finishing reading The Vintner's Luck, which, oh my GOD. BEAUTIFUL BOOK. FEELINGS. I pretty much read it all within the last 24 hours and I have not been so engrossed in such a fucking good book in a LONG TIME.
Mmm books mmm. Next up to finish is the Shadow of the Wind, which I'm about 150 pages into so far. And I have at least three lined up after that so YEAH. I am excited to be excited about reading.
(MY MOTHER IS STILL NOT OUT OF WORK. WHY DO THEY NEED TO KEEP HER LATE. THERE ARE ONLY LIKE TWENTY POKER TABLES LEFT UP RIGHT NOW.)
It's been ages since I've posted here or done much commenting at all (but I'm always reading your posts!) because I am all sorts of a mess emotionally right now? Just a bad bad depressed slump which is attacking my ability to interact with human beings without buckets of insecurity. It is not a fun place to be and I want to say I am trying to fight it but mostly I am just waiting for it to go away? IDK. Books are helping.
I'm not really...doing much with my time lately? Working a bunch - my hours are generally 5pm to 1am so my schedule is like...wake up at 230, spend an hour adjusting to being awake/checking the Internet/maybe eating, showering at 330, leaving for work by 420, swiping in at 448, working til 100, getting home by 130, and then staying up until anywhere between 330 and 530. Sometimes I have to either wait or come back in a few hours to bring my mom home from work, too. I DON'T SEE MUCH SUNLIGHT but at least I get to drive into the pretty sunset on my way to work.
IDK! Life is kinda dreary! I feel like I haven't had an actual conversation with a friend-type-person in forever! It's getting cold! My mom still isn't out of work and she's had a half hour overtime! It is clear that I'm just rambling here until my mom starts walking down to where I am creepily parked in a no parking spot. Maybe I will take a picture and edit it into this entry.
On the bright side: I am well liked by management at work! And most of my coworkers are friendly. Coworker Brad is apparently SO DETERMINED to get me to play Street Fighter against him over magical playstation internet things that he is willing to spend forty dollars to buy the video game for me. I AM NOT LETTING HIM DO THIS. I TOLD HIM VERY FIRMLY NOT TO DO SO I would be awful at such a game anyway. Hopefully he'll give up bugging me to get this game soon.
Ummm. What else. I had my mom chop off a bunch of my hair at three in the morning the other day? It is very clearly not a professionally done haircut and is very scraggly and kind of uneven but at least it is more comfortable than all my gross hair before. And it was fun.
It is 435 so now my mom probably isn't getting out until 5 :( my head really hurts :( I would like to go home :(
Okay I think I've gone on about enough here. Um. Hi LJ. I miss you. <3