Waxing somewhat philosophical..or not...
Its funny how some understandings come to you late in life. I suppose middle of life in my case. :) When I get in debates/arguments or present my point in discussions I often come across as the asshole or jackass. While I won't deny that I am either of thise things, I am, it is often times an environmental response. I used to be the ultra polite person. Was raised to be respectful and polite. So when presenting a point or something I felt I was often subtle or a little obtuse so not to upset anyone. Which often was either a sign of weakness, or I was too subtle or whatever. Just the end result was a "that's nice" and moving on. I also hated confrontation, so between the two I often found myself stuck with results I didn't like and sucking it up. Being mostly laid back as a youngster as thankfully my older siblings took on the responsibility of cooking, cleaning, and running the house if my mom wasn't home, for the most part things didn't bother me that much. I had free reign to do what I wanted. But when you take too much crap and can't get your point across nicely you don't bother anymore. I realize that I am not all that nice or respectful to others point of views when I am trying to make a point. Just realized that the long way isn't going to work, so fuck it, here it is blunt, suck it up. The odd thing is it doesn't bother me that much when people disagree, its the holier than thou I am right, because I am coming across as an asshole. Makes people want to disagree I think. No one likes agreeing with the asshole. Hell I don't. THough I do want to violently beat the hypocrites that love to play devils advocate if they know nothing of the subject or want to argue just to argue. I extremely rarely argue for arguement's sake. Better things to do with my time. If its a lively engaging discussion sure thats ok. But if you care about something and arguing heatedly, I hate the baiters who try to string you along. Wouldn't surprise me if I snap one day when I have some bail money put away and beat the crap out of someone because I can afford to for them being stupid.Or me being stupid depending on pint of view. Just saying. Probably something I shouldn't put in print but there you go.
The end result is I guess that if I argue I often come across as the asshole. Which irks me because I don't intend to. Just want to make my point in the quickest shortest means possible. Why waste twenty minutes dancing around a subject? Here are my thoughts thank you. Wow realize this is rambly and probably not making my point very well. Probably trying too hard for people to understand. Oh well. Fuck it.
In other news, I am older. Feel like I should have a midlife crisis. Or invent one, give my life some purpose. :) Am at half the age I expect to live to based on family history. That's midlife right? Oddly sparked some other wtf philo thoughts in my head. For another day. But I can complain but won't. Who wants to listen really. Life is either sucking or not. Hopefully for most people its not. Peace.
The end result is I guess that if I argue I often come across as the asshole. Which irks me because I don't intend to. Just want to make my point in the quickest shortest means possible. Why waste twenty minutes dancing around a subject? Here are my thoughts thank you. Wow realize this is rambly and probably not making my point very well. Probably trying too hard for people to understand. Oh well. Fuck it.
In other news, I am older. Feel like I should have a midlife crisis. Or invent one, give my life some purpose. :) Am at half the age I expect to live to based on family history. That's midlife right? Oddly sparked some other wtf philo thoughts in my head. For another day. But I can complain but won't. Who wants to listen really. Life is either sucking or not. Hopefully for most people its not. Peace.