Venting.
This might be irrational, even down right, borderline, bad-girlfriend crazy but every time he mentions something that happened while he was with his ex he says “we”. And every single time, those two tiny letters (which have such a massive connotation) make my skin crawl. It’s jealousy. That I’m sure of. But, to be jealous of things that happened before is a little excessive. Even I think that. But I think there are a few reasons for it: for one the “we” word in regards to them seems to leave him lips a lot more often than “we” in regards to he and I. And that makes me sad. Like it makes me sad that there are so many things that aren’t going to either happen or count with he and I because of that “we”. It’s like I’m missing out on something (which is a feeling I get fairly often since he is my first actual boyfriend.) And it doesn’t help that she doesn’t understand what an EX means, and continues to try and poke herself into his life all the time. It just acts like such a reminder, and not one that I really need. And it really does feel like competition. There’s no other real way to explain it, but all the “we”s and the attempts at popping up make me feel like I’m in competition.
And have I ever mentioned how much I hate that she has his last name?
And have I ever mentioned how much I hate that she has his last name?