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Really didn't feel like rolling out of bed this morning but can't sleep either. Don't feel like doing much of anything these days. I miss my baby so much I can't even take it anymore. And I am suppose to have him on Saturday but now he is going to Tuly's cousins wedding with them so I have to wait until after the wedding to get my own son. This is bullshit! He is my child not hers. I no its not mentally healthy to hate but I am really starting to hate and resent her so much. And its not so good for my soul. I just dont know how to shake this feeling.
Lately there are a few guys who have been trying to see me but I really have little to no interest in men right now. I could careless about them. They annoy me for the most part. I just want to be left alone. But on the other hand I am also so lonely. I am starting to realize that I am never happy and may never be satisfied at all. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. Sounds like a classic case of depression I guess.
Jay finally stopped calling or at least stopped calling so damn much. I found out Levi has a gf through freaking facebook even though he still tries to deny it. But whatever I dont really care just made he didnt tell me. My ex John found me on facebook and is trying to hang out but I dont think thats a great idea so I am not going to. I still talk to Fallons cousin Joe he wants to hang out tomorrow but I am not going to either. I just dont want to be bothered.
I feel like all I ever do is work and sleep. I barely even clean anymore and I really need too.
Court didnt go so good the other day. It looks like I could lose my dl's for another year. Which really negatively will effect my life. I feel so frustrated with life.
Lately there are a few guys who have been trying to see me but I really have little to no interest in men right now. I could careless about them. They annoy me for the most part. I just want to be left alone. But on the other hand I am also so lonely. I am starting to realize that I am never happy and may never be satisfied at all. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. Sounds like a classic case of depression I guess.
Jay finally stopped calling or at least stopped calling so damn much. I found out Levi has a gf through freaking facebook even though he still tries to deny it. But whatever I dont really care just made he didnt tell me. My ex John found me on facebook and is trying to hang out but I dont think thats a great idea so I am not going to. I still talk to Fallons cousin Joe he wants to hang out tomorrow but I am not going to either. I just dont want to be bothered.
I feel like all I ever do is work and sleep. I barely even clean anymore and I really need too.
Court didnt go so good the other day. It looks like I could lose my dl's for another year. Which really negatively will effect my life. I feel so frustrated with life.