Seasons are changing and waves are crashing and stars are falling all for us. <3
So...today was a bad day..but there were a few up sides to it.
I like Angel. A lot. I'd kill to be with her. This is horrible to say...but I would change my whole life around just to be with her. I like her that much. But she likes a boy. And my past and rumors really fuck things up. So I probably won't have a chance with her. I cried on the way home from practice after we talked and I realized I wouldn't make the cut. I've fucked up too much. Point blank.
Alex and I broke up. It's whatever. I missed her at first...but then i relized every word she ever said to me was a lie. If you start to be with someone so soon after a relationship there's no way you loved the person you were with before. It'd be cool if we didn't end on a bad note and still talked every now and then but I guess that's really up to her.
Band's going alot better now. Guard's really starting to do good. I'm so happy. We have regionals at Cinnaminson this saturday which helps place us for championships in 2 weeks. Then we have a normal competition at Coatesville, Pa next saturday. And then the following saturday is Championships at Hersey, Pa. I'm excited. I think we'll do real well. At least in the top 3. *knock on wood* And after that...competition season is over and I'll have no life again.
Cindy's still my best friend. And I still love her. We still fight. But we always make up. I could not live without her.
Kelley came back from Hawaii. She bought me flowers yesterday. It was cute. I <3 her!
Jules and I have gotten real close. But I don't know how that'll last after tonight. She just kinda messed what could have been something with angel. I mean it's not really her fault..but it would have been better if she jsut didn't say anything because what i told her wasn't and couldn't happen. I just kinda...don't like boys. I guess I'm going full lesbian.
I'm becoming friends with a lesbian in my psychology class named malissa (missy as her close friends call her). She's Lisa's ex. But then again...who isn't? We just really became friends today and she's really cool. She's dating right now my ex Sam from EHC. Sam was my first girlfriend ever in 7th grade. And then we dated again summer going into sophomore year...i kinda messed things up with that. I still have her punk pants and belt. I was wearing them as a joke the other day. lol. They just broke up though..
I've gotten real close with Robin Hess too. She's from Mainland and she's in my English and History class and lunch. She's amazing.
Me and Britt Mercado are still friends. Haha. Still in the same gym and lunch. I hope she is next year too. *knock on wood again*
Tegan's in my gym and lunch too. She's also in my computer graphics class too. I <3 ms raph. Although, we actually have to do shit in that class this year...and it's pretty hard.
Except for today everything's been going pretty well. I'm usually a really happy person. I definatly get into my moods and go completely psycho sometimes but I'm told I'm really funny and fun to be around. My friends make me that way. I have the best ones! =]
Well that's really all. I'm in a much better mood than i was when i origionally started this. Because i started thinking about different things and melissa got me talking and made me feel alot better.
Love you guys. <3
P.S. I MISS MINA MAN!!! AND ARIANNA...WTF! why don't i see either one of you!? I love you guys anyway. I miss Nik and Maria too. I hardly talk to them anymore too. We should get together one friday night and watch degrassi. I couldn't go last time. =[ I'm sorry.
I like Angel. A lot. I'd kill to be with her. This is horrible to say...but I would change my whole life around just to be with her. I like her that much. But she likes a boy. And my past and rumors really fuck things up. So I probably won't have a chance with her. I cried on the way home from practice after we talked and I realized I wouldn't make the cut. I've fucked up too much. Point blank.
Alex and I broke up. It's whatever. I missed her at first...but then i relized every word she ever said to me was a lie. If you start to be with someone so soon after a relationship there's no way you loved the person you were with before. It'd be cool if we didn't end on a bad note and still talked every now and then but I guess that's really up to her.
Band's going alot better now. Guard's really starting to do good. I'm so happy. We have regionals at Cinnaminson this saturday which helps place us for championships in 2 weeks. Then we have a normal competition at Coatesville, Pa next saturday. And then the following saturday is Championships at Hersey, Pa. I'm excited. I think we'll do real well. At least in the top 3. *knock on wood* And after that...competition season is over and I'll have no life again.
Cindy's still my best friend. And I still love her. We still fight. But we always make up. I could not live without her.
Kelley came back from Hawaii. She bought me flowers yesterday. It was cute. I <3 her!
Jules and I have gotten real close. But I don't know how that'll last after tonight. She just kinda messed what could have been something with angel. I mean it's not really her fault..but it would have been better if she jsut didn't say anything because what i told her wasn't and couldn't happen. I just kinda...don't like boys. I guess I'm going full lesbian.
I'm becoming friends with a lesbian in my psychology class named malissa (missy as her close friends call her). She's Lisa's ex. But then again...who isn't? We just really became friends today and she's really cool. She's dating right now my ex Sam from EHC. Sam was my first girlfriend ever in 7th grade. And then we dated again summer going into sophomore year...i kinda messed things up with that. I still have her punk pants and belt. I was wearing them as a joke the other day. lol. They just broke up though..
I've gotten real close with Robin Hess too. She's from Mainland and she's in my English and History class and lunch. She's amazing.
Me and Britt Mercado are still friends. Haha. Still in the same gym and lunch. I hope she is next year too. *knock on wood again*
Tegan's in my gym and lunch too. She's also in my computer graphics class too. I <3 ms raph. Although, we actually have to do shit in that class this year...and it's pretty hard.
Except for today everything's been going pretty well. I'm usually a really happy person. I definatly get into my moods and go completely psycho sometimes but I'm told I'm really funny and fun to be around. My friends make me that way. I have the best ones! =]
Well that's really all. I'm in a much better mood than i was when i origionally started this. Because i started thinking about different things and melissa got me talking and made me feel alot better.
Love you guys. <3
P.S. I MISS MINA MAN!!! AND ARIANNA...WTF! why don't i see either one of you!? I love you guys anyway. I miss Nik and Maria too. I hardly talk to them anymore too. We should get together one friday night and watch degrassi. I couldn't go last time. =[ I'm sorry.