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i'm so sick of all the bullshit. that's basically it. i've come to the conclusion that everything is bullshit. ok- glad that's settled. on to other bullshit situations... i went to the doc. today- it pissed me off- so i don't feel like getting into that- so after that i went shopping and spent all my bday money so now i'm broke, but hey its all worth it!(even though i prob. won't wear it all for months)i didn't go to dance tonight- my body is way to sore to even like lift my legs- it sux. so yea, that's my day- sounds great huh? dang- i've got so much crap going through my head these days- stress!!! i wish i could just graduate now and move- that would solve alot of all the shit-
i wrote this the other day- it's kinda some of what is in my head...
These past few years of my life have been an unforgettable haze. Lost and alone, the meaning of life became extremely vague. Shadows of darkness hovered over me as i silently wept. The betrayal, pain, and sorrow seemed immortal and my life became regret. Rage overwelmed me as i lay in darkness, helpless and broken- but i secured these emotions within to be locked and unspoken. I became my own protector and my heart built barriors of its own. What was really fragile and weak, appeared to be made of cold, rigid stone. Life was stripped away and pain was all i knew. A heart once full of life and compassion, lost all desire to continue. The tears i cried determined the direction of my fate- while the wounds told a story, of the life i was to await. i pressed on in life without hope and without faith. I watched my passion for life degress and watched it slowly fade away... I fell to my knees as i made the decision of my life- i yearned for a refuge and pleaded for the pain to subside. In the depth of my heart, i knew i needed to grasp life- if i didn't do it soon, i would leave my family and friends in grief and strife.
Although my body and soul were so very weak- step by step i continued life and listened to my inner voice speak. Emotions and desires once lost in my heart are clearer everyday. Memories once abandoned emerge, in a discrete, unpredictable way. Whispers buried deep in my soul arise from within, allowing new windows to open and helping my heart as it mends... At times i still struggle with the battle i fought and knew, but words speak within me and cry," TIME WILL SOON HEAL ALL OF YOUR WOUNDS." Scars remind me daily of the life i took forgranted- but with my passion and desire to live, i know i will never be left stranded.
woah... KaTiE
i wrote this the other day- it's kinda some of what is in my head...
These past few years of my life have been an unforgettable haze. Lost and alone, the meaning of life became extremely vague. Shadows of darkness hovered over me as i silently wept. The betrayal, pain, and sorrow seemed immortal and my life became regret. Rage overwelmed me as i lay in darkness, helpless and broken- but i secured these emotions within to be locked and unspoken. I became my own protector and my heart built barriors of its own. What was really fragile and weak, appeared to be made of cold, rigid stone. Life was stripped away and pain was all i knew. A heart once full of life and compassion, lost all desire to continue. The tears i cried determined the direction of my fate- while the wounds told a story, of the life i was to await. i pressed on in life without hope and without faith. I watched my passion for life degress and watched it slowly fade away... I fell to my knees as i made the decision of my life- i yearned for a refuge and pleaded for the pain to subside. In the depth of my heart, i knew i needed to grasp life- if i didn't do it soon, i would leave my family and friends in grief and strife.
Although my body and soul were so very weak- step by step i continued life and listened to my inner voice speak. Emotions and desires once lost in my heart are clearer everyday. Memories once abandoned emerge, in a discrete, unpredictable way. Whispers buried deep in my soul arise from within, allowing new windows to open and helping my heart as it mends... At times i still struggle with the battle i fought and knew, but words speak within me and cry," TIME WILL SOON HEAL ALL OF YOUR WOUNDS." Scars remind me daily of the life i took forgranted- but with my passion and desire to live, i know i will never be left stranded.
woah... KaTiE