I survived the shit storm!

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Well, due to a phone call I made to her grandmother a few days ago, She knows. The she I am refering to is the person I was dreading telling I am moving to Canada. She knows now that I'm moving and came over last night to basically yell at me for that and a few other things. She walked up here with a ton of bad attitude and sarcasm and a hell of a lot of bitchiness and I just sat there cool, calm, and collected and didn't let any of the crap she was saying bother me. Of course she made me moving to Canada all about her, wondering how it was going to affect her and frankly, I wasn't surprised. Me moving to Canada to help out Rachel has absolutely nothing to do with her whatsoever and yet she tried very hard to make it all about her. You go right ahead. If that's what you feel you need to do, throw yourself yet another pity party, go ahead. Meanwhile, I'll be doing laundry, packing, and gathering all the documents needed in order to bring Tigger-Marie over the border. While you sit around wondering how this will all affect you, I fully plan to continue on with my life. I am not going to let anyone make me feel bad for the decisons I make for my life. If it's good for me AND it will benefit other people, then yes. I fully plan on doing it. No amount of anger, sadness, or Poor Me my friend can throw at me will get me to stay. I should be insulted that none of the things she said last night had anything to do with our friendship, or missing me, or wishing we had worked things out so I'd be leaving with our friendship on a good note...nothing like that was said and while it may disappoint me a little, it doesn't surprise me at all. If she had said anything like those things, maybe just maybe I'd believe that she actually has a heart and cares about other people but maybe she doesn't. I don't know and I'm not going to waste any more of my time thinking about it. If this is how she wants to be, if this is how she wants things to end before I move, then fine but don't expect me to sit around and cry about it. I have better things to do and in just a few days, I will be in a better place with people who actually want me there.

Yes, I said a few days. I decided on Valentine's Day that I need to get out of here...NOW. There is just too much crap going on around here and I have no real reason to stay here so why wait until April? Rachel can use my help just as much now as she could in two months so why wait? There isn't a reason, now is there? So I've been doing laundry, and packing, and gathering of documents and going to meetings with Social Security and my case workers...basically just tying up loose ends before I leave. Everything is a go...except for my ride up there. I am still on the hunt for someone willing to drive me and my cat to Rachel's on Tuesday. IF ANY OF YOU ARE WILLING TO DO SO, I WILL PAY FOR BOTH GAS AND FOOD AND IF YOU SMOKE, CIGARETTES. LET ME KNOW!! If I can't find a ride, I will still be here but rest assured, I will be looking for a ride for any day after Tuesday. So if you can't take me on Tuesday but you can, say, Thursday. Then fine. Let's go! The ride situation is the only thing keeping me in Michigan so if any of you are willing to help get rid of me sooner, let me know!!

That's all for now. I must get back to laundry and go looking for those stupid vacination papers for Tigger-Marie. Love you all and God bless!