Vanna, you're basivally the only friend I have left of LJ answer soon!!
this is a letter to my friend Jon that I am really into, and i'm not sure if I should send this email this weekend or not, let me know please. I could use some feedback.
hey jon.
I know you probably just got home from chicago but i feel like i should tell you whats going on.I have to admit I absolutely love LOVE hanging with you, you're a freakin riot. But i'm not always intirely sure you feel the same, although I think you think of me as a friend, i'm not sure you see me as much beyond that, or rather that you are not ready to see me as more then that. I do not want to rush you into anything and i want to make that perfectly clear. which is why i'm writting you, since i am able to express myself more clearly with written word then verbal. I just think that what happened last year with Ashley and Gabe this year has put you off to relationships. Please don't misunderstand me, I have not had perfect relationships in the past the last one i had lied and cheated on me and broke my heart entirely, but I know that because of everything that happened I wouldn't be the person I am today. I know what happened with Ashley isn't the same but there are things you do and say that worry me that you're not as over the whole situation as you say you are.I know because its josh its a lot closer to home then you'd of liked but the fact is its closer then anyone would have liked to deal with. Jon when it comes down to it, I really do like you and I'd love to hang out with you and spend more alone time with you to get to know you. I think you're absolutly amazing. I just don't know if you're entirely ready for me. I spent two years with someone who only wanted me around because I was the only stable part of their lives, they weren't even interested entirely in me because I took care of them, I don't want to be needed Jon, whether its just as a stability or to help move you on, I want to be wanted, I know that sounds super cheap trick-esque in the I want you to want me way, but its true, if you are actually attracted to me, and want me around in that way, then that is awesome, if not hey whatever I would love to be your friend because like I said you are amazing and I'd love to continue to hang with you regardless of how you felt about me personally. I'm sure this is not what you expected me to write this weekend if anything, but I felt it necessary. I really do like you Jon, whether that becomes just friendship or not really depends on you, not so much whether you like me or not or more that your ready or not. I really hope you are ready to move on but if not I'd love to be around to at least help . I am sure I am going to panic and obsess about this email, this is something I would usually say in person but I am able to express myself through word so much better than verbally. I am really debating sending this email at all.. ugh. I don't know if you'll take this in the spirit its intended or not. I really just want to express the feelings I've had for awhile and I don't know how you'd feel since your not really around lately. I do miss you Jon and Hope thoroughly that I hear from you soon.
love always,
Ashley Victoria
PS this is much longer then I intended originally. I'm just saying.
What'da think????
hey jon.
I know you probably just got home from chicago but i feel like i should tell you whats going on.I have to admit I absolutely love LOVE hanging with you, you're a freakin riot. But i'm not always intirely sure you feel the same, although I think you think of me as a friend, i'm not sure you see me as much beyond that, or rather that you are not ready to see me as more then that. I do not want to rush you into anything and i want to make that perfectly clear. which is why i'm writting you, since i am able to express myself more clearly with written word then verbal. I just think that what happened last year with Ashley and Gabe this year has put you off to relationships. Please don't misunderstand me, I have not had perfect relationships in the past the last one i had lied and cheated on me and broke my heart entirely, but I know that because of everything that happened I wouldn't be the person I am today. I know what happened with Ashley isn't the same but there are things you do and say that worry me that you're not as over the whole situation as you say you are.I know because its josh its a lot closer to home then you'd of liked but the fact is its closer then anyone would have liked to deal with. Jon when it comes down to it, I really do like you and I'd love to hang out with you and spend more alone time with you to get to know you. I think you're absolutly amazing. I just don't know if you're entirely ready for me. I spent two years with someone who only wanted me around because I was the only stable part of their lives, they weren't even interested entirely in me because I took care of them, I don't want to be needed Jon, whether its just as a stability or to help move you on, I want to be wanted, I know that sounds super cheap trick-esque in the I want you to want me way, but its true, if you are actually attracted to me, and want me around in that way, then that is awesome, if not hey whatever I would love to be your friend because like I said you are amazing and I'd love to continue to hang with you regardless of how you felt about me personally. I'm sure this is not what you expected me to write this weekend if anything, but I felt it necessary. I really do like you Jon, whether that becomes just friendship or not really depends on you, not so much whether you like me or not or more that your ready or not. I really hope you are ready to move on but if not I'd love to be around to at least help . I am sure I am going to panic and obsess about this email, this is something I would usually say in person but I am able to express myself through word so much better than verbally. I am really debating sending this email at all.. ugh. I don't know if you'll take this in the spirit its intended or not. I really just want to express the feelings I've had for awhile and I don't know how you'd feel since your not really around lately. I do miss you Jon and Hope thoroughly that I hear from you soon.
love always,
Ashley Victoria
PS this is much longer then I intended originally. I'm just saying.
What'da think????