for once in my life...
Wow, I am impressed that my livejournal still lets me log on, considering its been about two years since the last entry.I am crazy into this guy jon i met about four months ago but it drives me crazy because he is constantly on the move with work and i never see him, but most importantly he is not over the situation with his ex, no matter how much he suggests that he is. PS her name is surprisingly enough, Ashley. ugh. I am just so over being the ex gf replacement, not to mention I really don't want to become "the other" ashley. I just really want to meet someone that I enjoy being around and who actually Wants me, doesn't need me, they want me. Why is that so hard. Am I such a difficult person to date? Although I do think that with each bad relationship I do get that much more difficult because I don't want to repeat the same mistakes so I up my standards. I don't want to have to support a man, I don't want someone whose idea of a joke is calling me fat, or someone who'll cheat one you and then make you feel like you're the guilty one. I want my Mr.Darcy/Edward Cullen. I want someone that see's all my positive and negative and still wants me because thats who I am. Ugh I don't know, I'm probably holding out for the impossible but why not? I do feel as if I deserve it, as if all females deserve it. I just want to happy again. i'm too unsure of things and I don't like it. I'm nervous and frustrated. Its dumb. I am just going to go to bed and hope for the best.