I'm sad and depressed, I can't escape a single thought
Well today is a very boring day even though the weather is nice and I am in dupont today..I am just wishing I could manage to just walk over to Guinny's dorm and get in to bed with her cuddle and fall asleep right now....but she isn't at her dorm yet and I can't cuddle with her like I want to, not until she gets home and gets back to school!! I wish I could manage to get her at the airport or she can manage to come se me at the airport when I get home from Cali, maybe she will be able to do it?? I will have to ask her later on when I call her or talk to her later but I would be more than happy to her her smilin face back at me to greet me off the plane when I get home. My flight is gonna be really werid because I have to be at the airport at 5:30am, and then I get on the plane at 7:30am to depart to go to cali and its gonna be sad because I donno if anyone is going to be sitting with me since my folks are takin me (I think) and its gonna be on a tuesday so I am sure they will just head to work after I leave. But then I get home at 7:30pm and I don't have anyone special that I know pickin me up so...I donno...I just have so much on my mind right now and I a bit depressed right now. Just too many feelings and too many thoughts all in my head and I just wish I could just stop thinking about things and that my mind would just rest a little bit from makin me feel things and think about things yaknow?
Its really hard to discribe to be honest, if I could manage to put them all in to words this entry would probably be going on forever..and be nothing but meaningless babble or rambling, and I am sure the people that read this are or would be horribly bored out of their minds, or just like...GOD DOES SHE EVER SHUT UP!!!
I miss my baby, and I wish I could have her sitting here telling me she loves me and kissing me at Kramers instead of me just sitting here alone!
I think when I get home tonight after I try to call her and get online for a little bit I am going to just head to bed early because I just want to be able to forget about my thoughts and being sad and depressed!
Baby I love you soo much..and I am yarning for you and achin soo badly! Well I am going to go since I only really have 30mins on here so I will just have to write in my physical journal for now!! Baby, know that you're always on my mind, in my heart,soul, and my sight as I look at things and only think of you!! I love you my lil punkrock sugar bear!!
Its really hard to discribe to be honest, if I could manage to put them all in to words this entry would probably be going on forever..and be nothing but meaningless babble or rambling, and I am sure the people that read this are or would be horribly bored out of their minds, or just like...GOD DOES SHE EVER SHUT UP!!!
I miss my baby, and I wish I could have her sitting here telling me she loves me and kissing me at Kramers instead of me just sitting here alone!
I think when I get home tonight after I try to call her and get online for a little bit I am going to just head to bed early because I just want to be able to forget about my thoughts and being sad and depressed!
Baby I love you soo much..and I am yarning for you and achin soo badly! Well I am going to go since I only really have 30mins on here so I will just have to write in my physical journal for now!! Baby, know that you're always on my mind, in my heart,soul, and my sight as I look at things and only think of you!! I love you my lil punkrock sugar bear!!