A sesame seed
Well, I just took a pregnancy test a few hours ago that was positive! :)
I've just been laying here, unable to fall back asleep, googling things about the fifth week of pregnancy. The little life inside me is the size of a sesame seed! And at some point this week, his/her tiny heart will beat for the very first time.
That is absolutely miraculous to me. Amazing. And I'm not sure it's realistic to blame these tears on "the hormones" yet.
I'm really excited. Also nervous, because it's so early and miscarriage is still a possibility. God, I want this baby so badly. Please help him/her grow normally. Please let me carry her/him all the way through. I want our family to grow.
Help me. How can I manage this excitement and the simultaneous fear? It is still a waiting game, though we are farther than we've been. Thank you so much for that.
I am so grateful for this tiny, unbelievable life inside me.