THE PUNISHER ROCKS!
Okay....what a great couple of days!! First of all, on Sunday, I went to Cedar Point and got to see Josh!! AND Ryan!! AND Nad!! Oh my gosh it was great. I don't think I've had that much fun since CP last year...and might I add, Ryan looks completely mouthwatering this year. He's a double-blue now and for all of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, he's an area supervisor. So all he does pretty much walk around and do NOTHING and get a gorgeous tan from it. Man...wish I had that job.
So we all go out to Applebee's and we take Tom along with us. Grant it, it was a little weird seeing Tom again, but he's a nice guy. He makes the comment "Yeah, you should come back so I can have a girl to make my girlfriend jealous with," I'm like...FAT CHANCE, LEPRECHAUN!!! We're sitting at Applebee's and it's Josh, his roomie Matt, Ryan and Tom and I. And they're all trying to get me to go back to CP! They "claimed" that I promised that if Josh came back this year I would too. (Which I really did...but, I don't know) The thing that got me curious was that Ryan kept sayin' "She's comin' back, you're coming back this year no matter what." Which kinda made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside, not to mention the fact that every time I hugged him, he seemed to linger for just a little bit. I don't know if he was doing it to toy with me, or if he honestly didn't realize that he was doing it. I'm supposed to go back there tomorrow, since it's Ryan's day off, but I don't know if I can get the money. That and Friday is his 20th birthday and I promised to be at that... I don't know what it is about him...Ryan is just...a great guy. *sighs* It was just alot of fun.
Later on we were all sitting in Josh's apt. watching Invader Zim and listening to Cradle of Filth while Dan did me a tarot spread. And he has grown in it quite alot since last year and I'm very proud of him. He's gotten an excellent standing in the religion...good boy. So, he's sitting there telling me almost EVERYTHING that had happened since December, almost to a T. Everything he said about Steve, all the fights, everything, he knew. Now, I hadn't said anything to Dan except for the time when he wanted me to come visit him I said I couldn't, my boyfriend wouldn't let me, which was the truth. That was all I said and he's basically reading me like a book while Ryan's sitting RIGHT THERE, listening to everything. Definitely an interesting night.
Still later on that night Josh and I go to X. Dead city. Nothing but old scary drunk queens dancing to Toni Braxton on an empty stage, so we left early. After a tearful goodbye from Josh, I had a long drive home so I got some thinking done. Should I go back to CP? Or should I stay here and try to get things worked out? Up there is a good job with good money....not to mention Ryan, but he's not even a gurantee... down here I have a mediocre job with okay money and I have my family. I really need your help on this guys. If you have any ideas or tips, it would be great.
Now comes today! I met up with my old friend Tracy from HS and we went to the mall, had lunch and saw The Punisher. GREATEST FREAKING MOVIE EVER!! I loved it so much!!! Then we had ice cream and talked about who we knew from highschool that came out. I found out that Tyler Theofilous is gay... hmm.... you learn something new every day I suppose.
Well, that's about it. My life the past few days. *sighs* Guys, I'm in a bind here. I'm standing at a fork in the road and I need some direction. Anyone have a map??
(Oh...and by the way. I know what's going to be said to me, once certain people read this. So, here's a message for you. My life, not yours. Build a bridge and GET OVER IT. I have friends that love me and I love them, and no one is going to keep me from the people I care about.... That is not a threat. It is a vow. So you can push your pity party on someone else because it is only falling on deaf ears here.)
So we all go out to Applebee's and we take Tom along with us. Grant it, it was a little weird seeing Tom again, but he's a nice guy. He makes the comment "Yeah, you should come back so I can have a girl to make my girlfriend jealous with," I'm like...FAT CHANCE, LEPRECHAUN!!! We're sitting at Applebee's and it's Josh, his roomie Matt, Ryan and Tom and I. And they're all trying to get me to go back to CP! They "claimed" that I promised that if Josh came back this year I would too. (Which I really did...but, I don't know) The thing that got me curious was that Ryan kept sayin' "She's comin' back, you're coming back this year no matter what." Which kinda made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside, not to mention the fact that every time I hugged him, he seemed to linger for just a little bit. I don't know if he was doing it to toy with me, or if he honestly didn't realize that he was doing it. I'm supposed to go back there tomorrow, since it's Ryan's day off, but I don't know if I can get the money. That and Friday is his 20th birthday and I promised to be at that... I don't know what it is about him...Ryan is just...a great guy. *sighs* It was just alot of fun.
Later on we were all sitting in Josh's apt. watching Invader Zim and listening to Cradle of Filth while Dan did me a tarot spread. And he has grown in it quite alot since last year and I'm very proud of him. He's gotten an excellent standing in the religion...good boy. So, he's sitting there telling me almost EVERYTHING that had happened since December, almost to a T. Everything he said about Steve, all the fights, everything, he knew. Now, I hadn't said anything to Dan except for the time when he wanted me to come visit him I said I couldn't, my boyfriend wouldn't let me, which was the truth. That was all I said and he's basically reading me like a book while Ryan's sitting RIGHT THERE, listening to everything. Definitely an interesting night.
Still later on that night Josh and I go to X. Dead city. Nothing but old scary drunk queens dancing to Toni Braxton on an empty stage, so we left early. After a tearful goodbye from Josh, I had a long drive home so I got some thinking done. Should I go back to CP? Or should I stay here and try to get things worked out? Up there is a good job with good money....not to mention Ryan, but he's not even a gurantee... down here I have a mediocre job with okay money and I have my family. I really need your help on this guys. If you have any ideas or tips, it would be great.
Now comes today! I met up with my old friend Tracy from HS and we went to the mall, had lunch and saw The Punisher. GREATEST FREAKING MOVIE EVER!! I loved it so much!!! Then we had ice cream and talked about who we knew from highschool that came out. I found out that Tyler Theofilous is gay... hmm.... you learn something new every day I suppose.
Well, that's about it. My life the past few days. *sighs* Guys, I'm in a bind here. I'm standing at a fork in the road and I need some direction. Anyone have a map??
(Oh...and by the way. I know what's going to be said to me, once certain people read this. So, here's a message for you. My life, not yours. Build a bridge and GET OVER IT. I have friends that love me and I love them, and no one is going to keep me from the people I care about.... That is not a threat. It is a vow. So you can push your pity party on someone else because it is only falling on deaf ears here.)