Jan 09, 2009 22:12
sometimes i wonder if it be easier if i hadnt had met you. id be blissfully unaware of being lonely, and id prolly be in more debt drinking away my lonely sad nights. id go out dancing every weekend, meeting meaningless guys winning a few free drinks and if worthy a free dinner and putting up with fake fronts and stories all for the same reason of them just wanting to get into my pants. i was used to that though. i was somewhat happy not having someone.
i wouldve saved myself many nights of arguing and tears and pointless conversations.
my future would be easier to plan out and i wouldnt think twice of what i wanted to do.
i miss my independence, independence of not needing someone of being able to sleep alone and looking down and seeing nothing but a hand instead of this ring that sometimes i wonder why i even really wear.
i think i wish we didnt create those memories that if i lost them now ill always miss.
i wish it was just ME.