Here we go again... but this time its different. (thank god)
Have you ever just clicked with someone? I mean you practically just met them and everything seems right? I really don't know how to explain it. I met this guy. We sat around for a couple of hours, in perfection. Everything about him is something that I've been longing for. Of course he would live 2 and a half hours away. He's the kind of guy that would remember my birthday, with me only telling him once. Someone that wants me to text or call him with every detail of my life if I feel that its important. He looked into my eyes and not down my shirt. He spelled out "I am really going to miss you" out with his finger on the back of my hand while we watched a stupid movie. He kissed me on my shoulder. He fell asleep next to me. He didn't look at me and Lily like we were completely insane when we were acting like me and Lily. lol. He mouthed "Why do you have to live so far away from me?" from across the room. He could very possibly travel those two and a half hours just to see me for a few minutes while I walk across a stupid stage to get a piece of paper. He thinks I'm beautiful and wants to watch me sing. He's funny, and sincere, and just wants to make me happy. So why am I running? I find myself searching for any reason for this to not work. I've never felt like this before. Yes, I've been infatuated and in some form of love, but I've never been so caught up from just a few hours. My whole body is shaking and I can't think straight. My mouth is dry and when I left him, I actually almost teared up. It fucking broke my heart. That doesn't happen to me. I know I've looked at certain guys with the "you're my world" look in my eyes, but this is the first time that I've looked at a guy and had him look at me and his eyes say, "I want you to be my world."