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Okay so I've just decided that I am a heathen. My mom is out of town and I'm entertaining guests every night or, I'm going out and being entertained. Either way I'm having the time of my life. I've had so many different people over here in the last 2 days that I think my neighbor is thinking I'm some kind of slut. Oh well, she's weird. She can deal because she lets her dog shit on my side of the yard... Bitch. question.. is it wrong to be with a guy that used to date a friend of mine who is no longer my friend? Not that I care, because I'm going to anyways, but still I ask.. I love my life. I love my body. I love being a rockstar. I love everything. Oh geeze, if anyone could be me for a few days, they'd never want to return to the boring managerie that is their life. I just want to dance. I want to be praised for being me. MWahahaha. I'm so ridiculous. And Patrick giggles at me. Silly boy. I've decided that I don't think many people could tell me "no." Especially if I wear these shorts. Made them myself. There's a guy that thinks he's in love with me. poor fool. He has told me how amazing I am and all that jazz countless times. I don't like that kind of praise. Not from freaks like him. I type like I talk. I can't talk today so my typing sucks. "Backspace" is my new best friend. Back to this loser guy. I'm kinda being mean and letting him adore me and then I'm being kind of a bitch. But its his own fault. He shouldn't be stupid. He's 20 and is falling all over me like I'm "the one." He is the only guy that I've ever used for money. And that's because from the moment I met him, he thought he could outthink me. Bad idea. He fucked up. It pisses me off when guys think they can outsmart me and get what they want by playing little games. Don't think so. I invented most of those games. But then after I fucked with him, he realized he wasn't smart enough and he'd met his match and now he wants me for real, more than ever. What I don't get is that a lot of guys that I've met via my gigs, they will keep coming back, keep buying me drinks, and worship me as long as I treat them like shit. Now how in the fucking world does that makes sense at all? Oh yeah, it doesn't. Its like a dumb bitch in an abusive relationship. "But he really does love me." Yeah bullshit. Advice: Don't love me if I don't love you. That's just plain stupid. Geewillakers, Batman. My leg itches. I think I'll come back to this and add some shit in a bit.