The heart accepting is harder than the mind understanding
Haven't been here in a couple of months, but it honestly feels like ages. So much has been going on.
We had a hard time with the kid and his depression. There were two weeks that felt like years themselves. But, he seems to be getting through things fairly well. And he still feels like he can come to me with anything, so we talk about everything. Thank God.
But, his mother and I decided that we were better as friends. Really, she finally accepted the fact that she's not a lesbian. But, bless her, she sure tried to be for me. And while my heart is pretty torn, it's not broken. Easier, I think, because deep down I always knew this would happen. Sheer force of will was not enough to makes things be the way I wanted them. So, I am weepy and sad and I still find her so damn sexy, but as I told her... I will always love her and eventually I won't be in love with her anymore. She is the best friend I have ever had. And I am so damn thankful that I'm not losing my friend. I'm just kind of sad that I'm losing my girlfriend.
Everything works out the way it is supposed to, in the end. At least that's what I believe.
Not sure this means I'll be here more regularly. But I do try and pop in to see what's happening with you all. My lack of comments is no indication of my care. Maybe that's something I can work on in the future.
We had a hard time with the kid and his depression. There were two weeks that felt like years themselves. But, he seems to be getting through things fairly well. And he still feels like he can come to me with anything, so we talk about everything. Thank God.
But, his mother and I decided that we were better as friends. Really, she finally accepted the fact that she's not a lesbian. But, bless her, she sure tried to be for me. And while my heart is pretty torn, it's not broken. Easier, I think, because deep down I always knew this would happen. Sheer force of will was not enough to makes things be the way I wanted them. So, I am weepy and sad and I still find her so damn sexy, but as I told her... I will always love her and eventually I won't be in love with her anymore. She is the best friend I have ever had. And I am so damn thankful that I'm not losing my friend. I'm just kind of sad that I'm losing my girlfriend.
Everything works out the way it is supposed to, in the end. At least that's what I believe.
Not sure this means I'll be here more regularly. But I do try and pop in to see what's happening with you all. My lack of comments is no indication of my care. Maybe that's something I can work on in the future.