After the biggest fight she and Leonard had ever had, Dani went back home to cry alone in her room. It wasn't long before her mother came in questioning her
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Leonard was angry too - at both her, and himself. He knew he should have been far more rational about things. He knew really that she wouldn't flirt with someone else. She barely flirted with him; she was shy, and he knew that wasn't her style. But it just looked that way. And it hit the wrong nerve
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Unfortunately for Leonard, Dani had turned off her PADD, and now was crying hard, soaking her pillow with tears. Every time she tried to sort the situation in her head, it all came back to the fact that she resented him for always being right.
No, it wasn't fair to him, but it was how she felt. And could she be in a relationship with him if she always felt herself being wrong? Maybe she wasn't smart enough, or socially adjusted enough for a relationship. Maybe he'd be better off without her.
And that was the last thought she held onto as she fell asleep.
He became more and more antsy as the night went on. Was it really over? Over something so stupid as that? He couldn't just accept that. But when he went downstairs to go to her place, to bang on the door if he had to till she talked to him, his father told him he needed to let Dani have her space tonight. That he needed to let her calm down, so they could talk rationally in the morning.
That was the only reason he stayed home that night. Because he trusted the advice of his father.
The next morning, Dani awoke with a headache. She groaned, rubbing at her brow bone, as the normal thoughts of morning flitted through her head. Shower, breakfast, Leonard... She gasped and threw the covers back, sitting up. She had broken up with him! She looked for her PADD on the floor and dove across the bed for it, but once she had it in her hand, she hesitated. Which would be worse? Him having responded, or him not responding at all?
Setting the PADD on her bed without turning it on, she decided to shower first, to clear her head and hopefully to end her headache.
He woke after a restless sleep. Rejecting breakfast, he sat up in his room, staring down at his PADD. So it really was over. She was ignoring him. He just needed the proof. The actual truth.
Dani took a shower, but by its end, she still didn't know what to do. She got dressed and went to talk to her mom about it. The biggest problem, she admitted, was that she resented him at times, for being better than her. Her mother said she needed to be honest with him about that, and then they could go on from there.
Taking the phone, Dani hurried back to her room and finally turned on her PADD, seeing the two messages. She was almost afraid to call him, to have another confrontation, but she felt guilty and awful about her behavior. So she dialed his number and put the phone up to her ear, crossing her fingers and holding her breath.
Leonard lay back in his bed after sending the message, almost too stunned at all of this to cry. He was jolted by the sound of his phone ringing and answered it before even looking at caller ID. "Dani?"
Her breath caught in her throat. She was supposed to say something, wasn't she? Because every thing she could have said had just exited her brain.
She nearly hung up. It was some weird impulse that made her pull the phone away from her ear and look at it, thumb moving for the end button. But she stopped herself and put it back up to her ear.
"I didn't mean it," she finally managed to get out, throat tightening as she spoke.
"You... don't wanna break up with me?" he asked her quietly. He was scared of her answer. Scared of this entire phone call, in actual fact. But it needed to be done. Had to be.
"No!" she answered, and that's when the tears started. "I didn't mean it! I shouldn't have-- I'm sorry. It's all my f-fault!" She let out a sob and rushed to grab some tissues to dab at her nose. "I know y-you s-shouldn't forgive me! I'm awful!"
"No, I-- I was an idiot and I'm sorry. I reacted stupidly to something that I should never have ever thought. Because I trust you. I didn't act like it, though," he replied quickly. He blamed her, too. But he knew he needed to apologise for where he went wrong.
As he spoke, she took a moment to blow her nose, then sniffled back more tears. "But everything's my fault! A-And it's always my fault and-- and I..." She paused to take a steadying breath. "And I resent you because of it. I'm sorry. That's not fair, I know."
She pressed a hand to her forehead, nodding. "Yeah. Y-You don't do anything wrong, just-- that's the problem, I think. I feel so stupid, all the time. And you don't do anything to make me feel that way, I just do."
"No!" She let out a noise of frustration. He just wasn't understanding her. "I don't want you to say sorry. I... I want to not feel this way anymore. But I don't know how to stop it." She sniffled and wiped at her nose with a tissue. "Do... do you still wanna be with me?"
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No, it wasn't fair to him, but it was how she felt. And could she be in a relationship with him if she always felt herself being wrong? Maybe she wasn't smart enough, or socially adjusted enough for a relationship. Maybe he'd be better off without her.
And that was the last thought she held onto as she fell asleep.
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That was the only reason he stayed home that night. Because he trusted the advice of his father.
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Setting the PADD on her bed without turning it on, she decided to shower first, to clear her head and hopefully to end her headache.
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So, have you dumped me, if you won't answer me?"
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Taking the phone, Dani hurried back to her room and finally turned on her PADD, seeing the two messages. She was almost afraid to call him, to have another confrontation, but she felt guilty and awful about her behavior. So she dialed his number and put the phone up to her ear, crossing her fingers and holding her breath.
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She nearly hung up. It was some weird impulse that made her pull the phone away from her ear and look at it, thumb moving for the end button. But she stopped herself and put it back up to her ear.
"I didn't mean it," she finally managed to get out, throat tightening as she spoke.
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