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[sweetiesun]

Payments
By: Megan Lowery

I have baggage, quite a few.
It's not huge, but it's one or two.
I've collected most of it over this past year;
There's a lot of it due to fear.

A lot of things have happened along the way.
Things that I don't have the words to explain or say;
However, each and every one of them have made me pay.

Payment is not in cash, money order, or credit card
It requires something more intense and hard.
It's pieces of yourself that make you who you are.

I have to pay in nights of crying;
Heartache that makes me wish I was dying;
Thoughts of my mistakes racing through my mind;
Me realizing exactly what I left behind.
These payments are almost more than I can bare,
But then I think to myself, "Well isn't it fair?"

I hurt someone I love dearly, that I regret.
Therefore, I don't deserve a beautiful romantic sunset.
Maybe one day all of my payments won't have been in vain
That is the only thought that keeps me somewhat sane.