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Ok so it's 12:32am and my family is in the living room watching Vin Diesel kick some ass and I'm in my mother's room on the computer trying to think of ways to entertain myself. Nothing is working of course so here I am writing on this livejournal thing thing that no one is going to read because I don't have any friends (other than LLTK of course) on here and I doubt he's interested in my writings.
So I am off to Cali in a few days and I went from being overjoyed to just whatever I mean I know that I have to come back and that my time there is going to be short so I'm just trying to find a way to be happy about going without worrying about the trip back.
In other news...I have been having to deal with an ex of mine (not willingly) and I am just tired of being nice. I don't want to hurt his feelings and tell him that we're over but I don't want to lead him on either. To be honest I would probably have jumped back into the same bs with him if I hadn't met someone that I want to get to know better. I'm not sure how he feels about me but I know that I enjoy talking to him and hanging out (when he has the time). And I know that he's being cautious cause he's been hurt and I'm trying to be too but it's like I'm not used to meeting guys like him. He is a special person from what I can tell though, and I want him in my life no matter in what capacity. Ok enough being so girly I hate that shit...showing emotions too soon is never a good thing for me so I'm just going to shut up about it.
So anyways it's only been 8 mins and I have said absolutely nothing important but I feel less bored which is a good thing. I have been playing with my new phone like crazy and my family is acting all wierd about it like I shouldn't do that or something. Whatever though It has a camera and everything and I want to figure all it's functions out so I can act a fool and send pics to people so that they can feel sorry for me and send me money...or not....I'm not holding my breath.
Alright I'm going to go now I guess I will write more later if the urge hits me and if my mother doesn't beat me with a stick for using her computer (she wouldn't for real though...so no need to call the cops). See Ya!
So I am off to Cali in a few days and I went from being overjoyed to just whatever I mean I know that I have to come back and that my time there is going to be short so I'm just trying to find a way to be happy about going without worrying about the trip back.
In other news...I have been having to deal with an ex of mine (not willingly) and I am just tired of being nice. I don't want to hurt his feelings and tell him that we're over but I don't want to lead him on either. To be honest I would probably have jumped back into the same bs with him if I hadn't met someone that I want to get to know better. I'm not sure how he feels about me but I know that I enjoy talking to him and hanging out (when he has the time). And I know that he's being cautious cause he's been hurt and I'm trying to be too but it's like I'm not used to meeting guys like him. He is a special person from what I can tell though, and I want him in my life no matter in what capacity. Ok enough being so girly I hate that shit...showing emotions too soon is never a good thing for me so I'm just going to shut up about it.
So anyways it's only been 8 mins and I have said absolutely nothing important but I feel less bored which is a good thing. I have been playing with my new phone like crazy and my family is acting all wierd about it like I shouldn't do that or something. Whatever though It has a camera and everything and I want to figure all it's functions out so I can act a fool and send pics to people so that they can feel sorry for me and send me money...or not....I'm not holding my breath.
Alright I'm going to go now I guess I will write more later if the urge hits me and if my mother doesn't beat me with a stick for using her computer (she wouldn't for real though...so no need to call the cops). See Ya!