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this past week has been a rough one yet, a total change in my view of life at the same time. so many people have given me different views on certain things that really opened my eyes. ive been upset this past week , and certain things would just send me into tears. and this weekend i had my share. im just gald that i had friends with me, that cared enough to comfort me. sometimes, i think id die without them.
i feel as though, im putting on this act. like, i can go to school , be fine, come home, and just cry. im not sure if its just me having a break down or what. but it needs to stop. i like being happy, i like not feeling depressed. yet lately, thats been my feelings.
my situation that im involved in sucks. i think that and school, have added to my reasons on being so upset. part of me is saying -- what have you gotten yourself into. the other part of me is saying . you know you love him and you dont want to be without him. i find comfort in him. i feel alot of differnt emotions for him, ones i havent felt about anyone before. he knows i love him, its not like its new to him. yet sometimes i feel as though its not mutual. i over analyze things. this can either be good , or it can be bad. usually leads to more bad than good. i dont think i could take another blow to my already bruised heart.
i wish i was normal . i wish i could express myself better, i wish that i could look at you and be able to say everything i want too.maybe someday -- ill be able to do so.
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i feel as though, im putting on this act. like, i can go to school , be fine, come home, and just cry. im not sure if its just me having a break down or what. but it needs to stop. i like being happy, i like not feeling depressed. yet lately, thats been my feelings.
my situation that im involved in sucks. i think that and school, have added to my reasons on being so upset. part of me is saying -- what have you gotten yourself into. the other part of me is saying . you know you love him and you dont want to be without him. i find comfort in him. i feel alot of differnt emotions for him, ones i havent felt about anyone before. he knows i love him, its not like its new to him. yet sometimes i feel as though its not mutual. i over analyze things. this can either be good , or it can be bad. usually leads to more bad than good. i dont think i could take another blow to my already bruised heart.
i wish i was normal . i wish i could express myself better, i wish that i could look at you and be able to say everything i want too.maybe someday -- ill be able to do so.
-- this entry was pointless . . no need for comments this time around